after i read the reply.
i felt so sad.
so feel like crying.
ahough u din say anything.
but it jus make me think that im no longer impt to u anymore.
it's so heartbreaking.


wanna runaway to a far far place.
i realli care.do u know?

everythings seem to be fine.
everything seems to get better.
but actually, alot of things are hidden beneath.

so stress up.
but yet there is nothing that i can do.
i jus wan a better life.
not only for myself.
but everyone.



u made me lose hope.
u made me walk away.
u dun give me any reason.
u just ignore.
if that wad u reall want.
i'll go along with u.

out to Jurong Point yest night to meet jie for dinner.
and noe wad.
i was late for half an hr.
oops. sorry jie to keep u waiting wor =/

then to Nike to purchase ah bun present.
nice nice. =)
hope she will like it.

and then off to jie hse to slp.
we slept quite early.
cos think both tired ba.


then today was such a great day.
it start off by going to work.
haha nth much to do but time passes quite fast.
cos wad i do is to chat n chat n chat.
hahahaha =x

then off to amk to mit jie n ah bun for lunch.
had lunch at Sticky rice.
as usual i ate the same thing lor.
haha had some chat.
mostly abt taiwan.
and it make me realli wanting to go there more.
but most imptly.
nid save up 1st.
whahahhaa

then bun went hm after tat cos she need do proj ah.
so both of us went to Cathay to watch "THE PROPOSAL"
haha was a good choice to watch that.
the show was funny. i think super nice =))

head to MOS for dinner.
haha wanted to go ASHTON but quene super long.
so jiu dun wan eat le.
cos i dun like to wait jus to eat.
find it supid lar.
whahahha

walk walk awhile then jiu proceed hm.
although like we didn't do much today but it was totally great.
a great day out =))
WOOHOO!!


partly cos ah bun say something nice to me today??
hahaha.
got improvement.but still super long way to go.
at least it make me more motivated.
and dun give up =))
Thanks!!


To: The one who still yet to return me the lucks that i lend her

was kind of sad that u treated me so cold.
i dunno is it cos u got nth to tok to me or?
and if that's realli the reason.
why we become so like stranger?
i guess.
i will never make myself impt to u.
no matter how hard i try.

i really think that i am doing not enough.

not determined enough. =(

Im feeling damn depressed.
Tears wanna roll down anytime.
But I controlled.


Sometime when u think u r gd.
It doesn’t mean others think u r gd as well.
Sometime when a person think u r gd.
It also doesn’t mean the others agree with that person.
Sometime when u thinks that u had gave ur best.
To others it may be nothing.


It seems like more and more things are running through my mind.


Will it be another slpless nite?
I seriously dunno why cant I be happy.


Feel like leaving.

my precious gonna be busy again.
cos it a new sem of school.

and it means means...
im gonna be more sianz agn. =(

wad worst is..
no more bball.
omg, 1 less day of workout! =((



i wanna club, sing, gym and play bball more!
all i want is play non stop without any worries =/


there are simply too many things that i wan.

Whenever negative thoughts came into my mind abt us.
I will try to think of all these:

You sayang my head whenever Im sad.
You hugged me tight whenever I cried.
You kissed my forehead to make me go to slp when im crying.
You always put ur hand on my shoulder.
You used to always hold my little finger whenever we walked on the street.
You carry my shoebag for me on every Friday.
You gathered grps of friends to celebrate for me on my birthday.
You let me slp half of your bed whenever I stayed at your house.
You buy me small little gifts whenever im moody.
You msg me telling me that im your precious.
You run to the carpark n cry n lying to the rest that u saw ur friend.
I carry your bag for you always (past).
I travelled all the way to your sch often to just meet you.
I’m the one that you will always cried in front of.
I take care of you when u needed me.
I help you to bath when you need me too.
I washed your feet for you when u r bitten by the mosquito.
I wiped off the blood on your arm when u fall off the bicycle.
I always like to hug you from the back.
I kissed you on the bus when u want me to because u r down (though you cant rem but I do)
I always send you home although I have a shorter way home.
I cried easily cos of u because your little action affect me.
I always like to write to you. (dairy etc etc.)
I used to go to your workplace often to pei you.
… … … … … … … … … … … … … …


And the list go on n on n on and I hope it nv stop…

Headache, body weak, wisdom tooth pain.
Sleepy, tired, restless

Mixed feeling.
Have been feeling really moody for the past few mths.



Sometimes when I needed you badly. You are just not by my side.

After more than 10 years of not seeing him.
I finally saw him yest at the wake.
Felt weird at 1st.
We din really talk.
Or can say never talk.
I just sat and kept quiet there.

But I can see that he or rather everyone there are damn happy to see us.
And if im not wrong I saw him almost tears when he saw us.

Kinda felt him poor thing.
Kinda miss him.
But there is nothing that I can do or I wanna do.
Because I dun wan to change anything.

When will we be able to meet again.
Will there be a next time.

I will put all the misses I had for him in my heart instead.
I suddenly felt so incomplete.


This day shall stay as memories and I will nv forget it.
040809


Wo shi xiang ni de.
Ni zhi dao ma.

decided to go clubbing.
so i parted with jie early.
sorry wor.
so dun wanna part with her though.
but i scared im late.

went club at Butter Factory yest with a grp of random ppls.
whahahaha my long lost contact sec sch friend(except for kachu)
hahha it was fun to me but not to them.
cos i think they not high?
despite drinking so much.
and i was super high.
i dunno why.
maybe cos i cant stop dancing?
ahahhaa

left at ard 4am.
saw Darren Tan(superstar singer)

then cab home with jinyan.
came home headach, wan vomit.
so head to bed straight.

and im still super tired nw!
haha feel like napping but scared tonite cant slp agn.
hahahha shall see hw later.


To my precious,
wo hao xiang ni wor.
i feel like and wanna spend more time with u.
but u r always so busy and i noe u wanna stay hm more.
forever and ever and we will never be parted kz.