Friday, July 31, 2009;
HuaiXiaoHai had died long ago.
isn't it?
i wrote...
1:43 PM
Tuesday, July 28, 2009;
I’m so sooo in love with the below song.
“ke bu ke yi ai wo”
Cant stop listening to it.
Im addicted.
If things will to be better.
I wish.
Not in really good mood today.
So feel like going for a drink.
Feel like making myself drunk.
Club esp.
Cos I cant dance it all out.
i wrote...
5:15 PM
Sunday, July 26, 2009;
just came back not long from gym.
woke upp at 9+ just to go.
cant slp anyway.
slpless nite for sort of like wks alr?
mentatlly and physical tired but mind just cant stop running.
i think maybe i wil just collape 1 day.
and no1 will noe abt it.
i just love fri and sat.
becos i can see u.
u r busy.busy and real busy.
till i think we will lose each other soon.
and i guess i will be all alone for the rest of my life.
awating for 5 more days.
gonna take a nap soon.
可不可以爱我为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近 却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定 努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军
为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你你
可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落你
可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看 我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪
过你能给我快乐还是寂寞
如果我變成回憶累了 照慣例努力清醒著 也照慣例想妳
好怕一放心睡了 心跳在夢中不聽話的 就停止了
聽著 呼吸像浪潮拍動著 越美麗越讓我忐忑
我還能珍惜什麼 如果我連自己的脈搏 都難掌握
如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣 我冰冷身體 擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳 人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己 如此狠心
如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮 蹣跚牽著妳 看晚霞落盡
漫長時光 總有一天 妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以 讓他陪妳 我不怪妳
快樂 什麼時候會結束呢 哪一刻是最後一刻
想把妳緊緊抱著 可知妳是我生命中的 最捨不得
如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣 我冰冷身體 擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳 人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己 如此狠心
如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮 蹣跚牽著妳 看晚霞落盡Mei
漫長時光 總有一天 妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以 讓他陪妳 我不怪妳
如果我變成回憶 最怕我太不爭氣
頑固地賴在空氣 霸佔妳心裡 每一吋縫隙
連累依然愛我的妳 痛苦承受失去
這樣不公平 請妳盡力 把我忘記
愛你勝過自己不會再後退 也不能再挽回
我們之間的一切讓我的心殘廢
要多少智慧 才能夠無所謂
倒不如給幸福多一次機會
我不想難過 你選擇了沉默
我們笑 把感傷輕輕帶過
如果能夠重新來過 我們有沒有把握
只是放開這樣的你並不容易
為何這一切已註定
不爭氣這對你著迷的心 留下難堪的自己
相信我會痊癒
原來這場戰役我輸得最徹底
勝利的你卻不屑的走下去
留下無法磨滅的回憶
愛你勝過自己
不會再後退 也不能再挽回
我們之間的一切讓我的心殘廢
要多少智慧 才能夠無所謂
倒不如給幸福多一次機會
我不想難過 你選擇了沉默
我們笑 把感傷輕輕帶過
如果能夠重新來過
我們有沒有把握
只是放開這樣的你並不容易
為何這一切已註定
不爭氣這對你著迷的心留下難堪的自己
相信我會痊癒
原來這場戰役我輸得最徹底
勝利的你卻不屑的走下去
留下無法磨滅的回憶
愛你勝過自己
只是放開這樣的你並不容易
為何這一切已註定
不爭氣這對你著迷的心 留下難堪的自己
相信我會痊癒
原來這場戰役我輸得最徹底
勝利的你卻不屑的走下去
下無法磨滅的回憶
愛你勝過自己
i wrote...
1:50 PM
Thursday, July 23, 2009;
yeah tml is friday again!!
i can see my precious.
misses her soooooooo much. *shy*
physically and mentally tired.
swimmin cancel later cos colleague 1 MC, the other 1 fasting.
wanted to ask diana to pei me de.
but but..
think i better go hm rest.
i wrote...
12:18 PM
Sunday, July 19, 2009;
this is what i have done on my wall.
just wanna put all the good memories up.
i wrote...
1:11 PM
boring day.
always plan my day to be empty on sun.
so that i can pei my mama at home.
but then..
turn out to be.
she always PS me!
just like today.
i woke up at 10+
then she already woke up alr.
telling me that she is going in Malaysia.
lols.
i heard liao.
sianz.
since then im free.
msg 1 or 2.
but always din reply din reply.
sighs.
suan liao.
alone at home cos siblings went arcade.
lols..
maybe i shall go slp agn soon.
hate to be at home alone.
was feeling real emo on fri.i teared.i cried.seriously.i dunno wad gone into me agn.nvm.cos that me.last time, now and even in the future.
i wrote...
1:03 PM
Friday, July 17, 2009;
i lied on bed at ard 1025pm yest.
but only fall aslp at ard 2am.
having slpless nite almost everyday.
sighs.
sometime im thinking.can i be the one to be hurt instead of her?i rather cry instead of seein her cry.cos it make mi more painful to see her cry.i rather be the one to be unhappy instead of her.cos once she is no mood=me no mood.i rather be the one to worry for eveything instead of her.so that she wun be so pek chek and easily frastrated.i rather rather.i rather take all the pain from her.cos she is happy mean i will be happy.wo tong ku wo wu shou wei.fight hard.cos life still goes on no matter how hard it is.last day working home.
back to office on Monday.
gd life got to end somehow.
=x
and it also mean.
im gonna see her less again. =(
i wrote...
1:07 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009;
i need motivation & determination.
and of cos confidence to believe in myself.
if nt im sure gonna get no where.
i dream of HuaiXiaoHuai yest.i guess its those songs that i have heard that remind me of her too much.went to watched her match.but she seems to ignore me.we are so near yet so far.feel so distance.ppls says that dream is different from reality.but i guess this time round is nt true.becos.i felt that we are realli distance.fellt so funnny.we know each other for like 4 yrs?and we nv celebrate each other bdae b4.why cant we be just like what we are before?
i wrote...
1:26 PM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009;
it's gonna be tough.
really tough.
i believe, it takes years to heal and overcome.
trying to fight hard.
will i be able to do it?
stay by my side and never go away.
i wrote...
1:18 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009;
im missing you.but yet i dun dare to contact you.becos i scared tat you are busy.sighs.i guess every wk im looking for is fri.becos that the day that i can see you.do u think of me when u r busy too?i hope im nt out of ur mind so easily.take gd care.
i wrote...
1:41 PM
Sunday, July 12, 2009;
just now woke up at 12+ pm.
whahahah gd slp man.
lols.
then sent my 2 pants for alteration.
whahahhaha it costs me 20 bucks you noe.
lols but nvm.
as long as it can make mi look nicer.
jiu worth it le.
hopefully is nt too tight ah.
lols.
i guess im going sunplaza with my mama later.
woohoo =))
wanna spend more time with her.
hehe =)
then later wil continue to watch my "handsome suit"
nice show =)
bride wars is another nice show.
it link back to me and u =)
i wrote...
2:23 PM
injured my finger while playing bball on fri.
sighs.
i hate it cos it's is painful.
yest went to bishan to collect my phone.
lol.
hopefully it's ok alr lar.
cos the next timei wil to go.
wil be charable alr!!
lols.
bought a few things yest.
so got man zhu kan.
lols.
bought purple topman basic tees, camera bag and 3 pairs of earring.
lol.
hahaaahha
me and the precious 1 had our dinner quite late yest.
and we walk like non stop.
and was like so tiring man.
cos she wore heels.
haha make me look so short.
idiot de lor.
i also nid wear heels alr lar.
lol.hahaha kidding =
the long bus ride make my butt pain sia.
cos raining plus national day preview.
then keep Jam Jam & Jam.
lols.
i enjoyyed my days.
next time when i ask u to beat me.
must beat me kz. =))
cos i wanna smiles n play with u.
but my physical dun allow me to.
dun mean to be so quieeeeet and sianzzzzz de.
dui bu qi!! =x (hua hua pull ear)
i wrote...
2:11 PM
Thursday, July 09, 2009;
oh yeah!
tml is friday!!
but this time rnd..
no bball..
shopping ba..
cos no players..
lols.. =((
though i realli realli realli wanna play bball. =x
the whole of next wk will be working from home.
yeah =))
can slp later.
and see my mama longer.
whahahahhaha
i wrote...
8:41 PM
Sunday, July 05, 2009;
do i realli look so young?
i noe ppls say i look young all along.
but for this 1 wk.
it has been 3 cases whereby ppls tot tat im below 16 alr?
tat like kua zhang?
1st was during my hair cut last sun.
tat lady tot im 16 nia.
2nd was when me n jie went to snow city yest.
jie order 3 adults tix and 2 kids
and the lady was like asking.
which 3 are the adults?
and the lady was like kip on pointing at me askin me hw old??
lol.
she tot im children?
i dun mind buying children tix lar.
whahahahhaa
3rd was today.
went to bishan to servic phone.
then the CSO look at my ic and say.
"u dun look like u r 22"
i tot u r v young only.
lols.
lol..
nvm..
young is gd!!
mean im healthy??
lols.
reach hm and notice that jie was exactly at bishan also.
lols.
why didnt we meet?
and so qiao tat she din bring hp.
is it our yuan fen getting worst n worst??? =((
ok hope im thinking too much.
lols.
tml is mon agn.
and is youth day.
youth no sch.
so shiok.
while i nid to get back to work.
sighs.
5 more days.b4 i can see u agn.why my heart misses u so much when u started to get back to sch?am i thinking too much agn?
i wrote...
5:27 PM
Saturday, July 04, 2009;
OMG i feel super duper fats now.
cos i had 3 meals of fast fd today??
Wake up damn early today.
at 7am.even earlier then when im going work sia.
then proceed to aml for KFC breakfast with jie.
the feel was better than the 1st i can say.
cos the 1st time i eat hor.
v de nt nice 1.
haha
then went hm to pick the 2 small 1 to the long waited Science Centre and Snow City.
we went to IMM for lunch 1st.
lols.
mac but objective gg there was to go daiso..
cos gonna get winter gloves.
and i tell u we all did had a great day man!
lots of fun.
and all except me was freezing inside the snow city.
(ok maybe my fats more, haha)
and looked at my mei face when she come down from the slide.
realli funny man.
like wanna cry alr.
can see tat she is realli too cold.
so we actually go in n out of the place a few times.
whahahaaha
no pics allow..=((
but there are ppls inside takning for us.
but but but!!
the pics are all far too exp tat why we din purchase it!!
haha then we proceed to sci centre.
walk walk see see.
and the 2 smal 1 treat as it it's play ground.
lol cos they dun understand anithing i think.
wad they can press they presss, wad they can play they play.
LOLs.
i'm impress with the cycle of the birth giving.
lol.
the 1st few wks is like..
erm erm..
smaller than a 5cents coin?
amazed isnt it.
hw a 5cents coin can turn into a pretty lady like me.
whahahahahahhaa.
lol ok i noe i BHB.
shall use cute then.
whahaaha
saw a little chick session.
a chicken ss too hatch out from a egg.
we wait wait so long only the leg come out nia.
til the sci centre close liao tat chick stil nt out!!
lols so we left alr lor cos closing liao mar.
lols.
headed back to IMM for dinner.
this time rnd..
LONG JOHN!
haha
now u noe why i feel so fat??
lols..
alright then walk walk ..
i spend alot agn.
kip buying for the 2 small 1.
guess i realli dote on them alot huh?
damn broke liao still kip buy lor.
haha then off we off to home swt hm.
hahaaha.
i'm hm early today.
ard 9pm.
whahhaa but we are all tired lar.
esp tat precious jie of mine.
see her in train wan slp alr.
whaahahaha.
soon. i will be slping soon.!!
nid ample rest! =))
work out work out and work out!
i wanna be work up nuts!!
and of cos result must be seen la.
diet must be control.
if nt hor.
realli no use lar.
whahaahaha.
JIAYOU!
look good & feel good!
that wad i wanna be =))
i wrote...
10:19 PM
Wednesday, July 01, 2009;
i dunno why but i miss u.
i wrote...
5:33 PM