Wednesday, January 28, 2009;
Act to be hard outside.
But actually crying inside.
Speechless.
i wrote...
9:39 PM
Tuesday, January 27, 2009;
below are the pics taken on CNY eve and 1st day of CNY.
yehs.
nothing much.
lols.
wanna go out today.
but was so tired and sick.
so intend to stay hm.
so fast and it's work tml agn.
and need to wait til april then got PH liao.
sianz.
i wan faster friday.
so that i can see u.
more bball sessions soon. =)
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7:00 PM
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6:57 PM
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6:52 PM
i wanna be happy.
cannot be so easily angry.
cannot so easily attitude.
must control.
i wanna be last time tat kai lang de wo.
i wrote...
12:02 AM
Monday, January 26, 2009;
It's CNY.
lols i noe everyone is happy abt this ocassion.
but to me.
is boring plus sian.
and of cos.
it let me felt the loneliness.
im trying to be happy but jiu shi zhuo bu dao.
and i dun wanna think and care so much but i jus cant also.
why why why?
it another year.
a brand new year.
can things change and not be the same?
wo zhi xiang guo wo yi qian de sheng huo.so lonely.jus like nw.siblings and maid slp alr.im alone in the room.asked mama come hm early pei me.she say she is busy at work so cant.haiz.wanna msg u.also cant cos u go slp alr.and dunno why u seems to forget abt me.though i noe is CNY.and i noe i have been disturbing u.jus reali feel like we have drifted.is that the true?and i always think tat u r much happy when u r with ur friends then with me.being with me is it too pressurize?and why now u seems like u dun wanna tell me things?am i thinking too much?or is it tat u realli dun wanna me noe abt certain thingS?whenever i msg u,ur reply will sort of end the conversation?u say u dun like to sms but why am i always seeing u msgin the rest?and u shld noe that im lonely and unhappy.so why dun wanna spend tat lil time to make mi smiles?hais i dunno.i so much hoping that i wil be happy.but im still the same.so much wanting to go to the temple and pray.im too stressed and tense up.who can understand my feeling?will post some pics when im free.
i wrote...
11:01 PM
Sunday, January 18, 2009;
another chapter of my life.
and it's going to get tougher.
i need to save as much as i can now.
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6:45 PM
Saturday, January 10, 2009;
went to amk with jie after work today.
got myself a pair of shoe (shown below).
think v long to buy ant cos it more of a gal type.
then i nt realli used to it.
but cos of i like the design and jie say she think ok so i jiu buy lor.
compared to my other shoes, this 1 nt cheap ok.
haha
then jie finally bought her silver heels.
then then hor.
i also got wear le.
lols.
but dun dare to walk with it cos i think i wil fall anytime.
haha
follow by NTUC.
bought another FBT.
cos i think quite nice and comfy
haha
then went hm.
do something and then stay hm hol day le.
lols.
dinner @ pasta mania.
saw my reflection while eating.
then then.
started to feel sad n think alot agn.
cos i see myself.
i felt myself so fats.
then like so er xin.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
cannot stand.
im sad sad n sad.
super sad
but i noe by saying no use.
gonna do something abt it.
i think i need v long time.but i wun wanna give up.cos i told myself before that i dun wanna be like wad i am now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!some ppl jus cant make my life peaceful.will my CNY be happy?
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10:53 PM
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10:50 PM
Thursday, January 08, 2009;
Wow, today is a disaster man.
Reach office early because there is a check up going on.
Then went to the few stations that we need to go to.
Blood pressure, Body fats analysis, Ht & Wt and blood test.
And and im so so sad after the test,
Because weight heavy, ht also nv increase.blood pressure slightly high.
Wao lao le.
Going crazy lar.
Wanna faint alr.
Why a sportsman become like this?
Wad the hell am I doing and to my health.?
Argh!!!!!!!!!
Super upsets.
Guess I cant always tok and do nothing.
If nt I will die v fast.
And let ppls laugh more.
Haiz wake up lar ShaoHua!!!!!!!!!
When are u going to prove to those that look down on u?
And when are u going to stop ppls mouth from commenting abt u??
Dun u feel the shame?
=((
Seriously upsets.
I wanna play bball, exercise everyday.
But I cant be out everyday cos I need to check my bro on his hw also.
So contradicting right.
Sucks.
Im sure a failure.
i wrote...
7:28 PM
Monday, January 05, 2009;
here i come 2009!!
a new year.a new start =)
jus came back from Genting & KL.
had so much fun over there.
aha.
but not going to type it all out if nt it will be so so long.
but im going to say...
i've been to Casino.!!
hahaha.
fun and great experience.
lols.
wanna more hols.
finally going back to work tml.
been on a v long leave.
yehs.
and it yeat 2009 alr.
i hope this yr will be a gd 1.
all the sadness plus unhappiness pls pls pls go away.
i wanna be happy.
looking forwards to write my 2009 resolution.
hahhaa.
lols.
i got so much to write.
hahha.
and and come to realise.
im so so old alr.
22 this year.
omg.
=((
how i hope im always 19.
lols.
hao la.
not going to type alr.
haha.
may 2009 be a gd year to everyone alright.!!
cheers
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4:52 PM
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4:40 PM
haha below are the vast that i bought at Lot 1.
when i told jie abt it.
her 1st reaction was..
"is a guy one or a gal one?"
haha lols so funny.
gal 1 i cant wear la.
so gotta buy guy 1.
like it lots though.
hope i will wear more often ba
whahha.
and that my precious mama attire on new year eve.
haha
why im so diff from her??
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