Emotions & Feelings

Thursday, October 30, 2008;

so fast and it's Friday tml agn.
but im happy.
becos i can enjoy.

was feeling sick today.
hope tml i will be better ah.
if nt later no mood agn.

i miss u.
hao xiang ni wor.
realli dunno wad will i do if 1 day u were gone.
hais =((
take one step at a time.
im trying hard to think of the positive whenever im nt feeling gd or sad.

do u miss mi like hw i do?
do u miss mi when im not ard?

more swimming sessions pls =))

i wrote...
9:38 PM

Wednesday, October 29, 2008;

Why I got feel my leg and back will get worst?

Getting more n more painful already.

i wrote...
10:15 PM

Sunday, October 26, 2008;

yest was a busy day.
went jie friend hse warming.
then proceed to JP.
then to clementi to wait for SH bf fetch to the condo.
to help her out in the decoration.
took hrs to think if the game for her.
but i can say it did not turn out well.
overall alright la.
quite enjoy it.

went clubbing @ double O after that with jie,diana and liyana.
1st time we ordered so many jug of drinks.
played some game.
was quite high and giddy in the 1st place but after that alright le.
and jie puke alot lor.
guess she must be feeling xinku.
why didnt u say when u cannot make it le?

and i dunno why.
yest seems like she has been attracting alot guys.
and she has been getting v high recently clubbing.
dancing non-stop.

even though i cant be at your side.
even though im not at ur side.
i will still be standing from far to make sure that u r safe.
bu rang ni shou dao re he shang hai.

jus wanna say.
dui bu qi for being angri.
wo zhi shi dan xin.
zhen de hao dan xin.

went jie hse slp.
receive a call.
haiz.
dun wanna say liao.

jie.
tthanks for being by my side.
i realli felt loved and xingfu at that time.
im so sorry to disturb ur slp alright.
at tat time.
u must be wanting to take care of me more ba.
zhen de hao xie xie ni.
to keep me accompanied.
without u.
i think i will be more crazy.
ilu.

seriously.
i think today is my suay day ever.
so i choose to slp whole day.
so that no more suay things wil happen to me.

i wrote...
7:09 PM

Wednesday, October 22, 2008;

oh ya.
my back and leg is getting from bad to worst.
when then i fully recover or feel better?

i wrote...
9:19 PM

i broke my promise agn.
=((
when then i will learn to keep my words?

jiayou can???

gym tml.
need to burn off my fats!!

shall we go for classes?

i wrote...
9:11 PM

Monday, October 20, 2008;

Xian zai de wo.
Receiving a msg or email from you finds myself v xingfu. =))
And of cos, I’ll smiles. =))Thanks for giving me those xingfu de gan jue.

U r forever a part of me.
Friday Friday =D

i wrote...
8:03 PM

Sunday, October 19, 2008;

ok shall faster post up this entry and go slp le.

it gettling late.

whahhaa.

today went Vivo with jie.

lols.

and i treat her to Marche.

got this couple in front of us (butch and les)

then i dunno why

find them v irritating

whahaha

then was telling jie pray hard not to sit beside them

but whose noe.

we realli sit beside them.

omg.

lols nvm.cos after a while im treating them like invisible.

haha.

try all new stuffs.

not bad not bad.

ate til v full.

whahahha.

ah jie ah.

hope u enjoy kkz.

cos i realli enjoyed myself today =))

smiles.

i wanna us be like this more =))

muacks!

alright.

gonna slp alr.

cos tml is escape/wild wild wet day!!

too bad jie not coming with us.

i will miss ur presense de.

hooray.

more fun more fun. =)))

oh ya,

i got a irritating ezlink card now.

whaha.

gdnite everyone.

i wrote...
12:25 AM

yest went to Diana 21st Birthday!!

lols.

haha few of us plan a game and dare for her.

lols.

cos wanna give her a memorable 21st bdae.

if nt she like so sian

haha

lols.

not easy ok.

faster thanks us!!! =)))

whahha

ur turn to sabo back ok.

SHIHUI!! (her turn liao)

whahah

ok shall post up some pics for yest.

lols.

the 1st pics is the nicest pic of the day.

(I wan also dun have ah)

haha oops.kidding.

oh ya u better be touch.

cos cos of staying over.

today im like zombie.

whahahhaa=))

i wrote...
12:14 AM

i wrote...
12:10 AM

Friday, October 17, 2008;

Haha yest was fun.
Din go to gym cos I was not feeling well.
So Diana, liyana and I went to have dinner at AMK.
Lolls ok MOS agn.
Then eat eat chat chat.
We decided to head to the arcade.
Lolls.
So fun lar!!
Esp the bball
Lolls.
Play till our hands all ache.
Even more tiring then gym le.
Whahaha.
But today was alright.

And I saw “something” outside “Hong Guan”.
Lolls.
Erm erm.
Think only 1 or 2 person will noe wad im trying to say.
Hehe =))
Idol.=x bleah.
To the someone: Jiayou on 20 Oct 08 alright.
Lolls.
Scarly I say so much she dun understand wad im saying.
Or im tokin to her.
Hahahha

Alright.
Diana party later.
Me and liyana preparing to give her a “Surprise”
Lolls.
Hope everything goes well alright =))

Oh ya so impt hw can I dun say this.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIANA PANG SENG LENG. (oops dun scold me)
Hehe
Hope u had a memorable party later and dun worried so much kz.
Everything will be fine.=)
With all the cuties (us) around.
Whahaha.

More chilling out session soon.
=))

i wrote...
7:00 PM

Thursday, October 16, 2008;

Was out yest with Eileen and Penny.
To celebrate Eileen birthday.
Too bad xue lin wasn’t able to make it.
Nvm next time though =))

We went to crystal jade kitchen at causeway point.
Haha my 1st time.
The roasted duck look so nice lor.
And the fried dumpling.
Whahaha so of cos we ordered both of this.
Plus a plate of fried chicken and Eileen with a seafood fried rice.
Lolls.her super big plates lor.
Like can eat two person.
Whahaha.

Then we chat abt all the exs, guys, etc etc.
Lolls cos long time nv mit up le.
Then got a lot to chat mar.
Haha
We stayed there for almost 2 hrs lor.
Haha.
Then after tat headed hm.

Haha gals.
More mitup kz.
Though I noe u all wun read my blog.
Other than my bball friends.
U all r the grp tat I only contact le.=((
See ya soon. =))

I shall upload the pics when im free =))

Lolls tml Diana 21st alr.
So fast and will left only Shihui nia.
Diana, then we can go lunar alr ok?
We must go those above 21 places.
Whahah =)

i wrote...
10:00 PM

Monday, October 13, 2008;

here are some pics of me zhi lianing at home.

of cos it taken by my mama.

she off today.

so happy =))

cos i got ppls to tok to.=)

lols the pic dun look nice but im still gonna post up.

cos i trying to be gal gal.

lols.

just taking a step out to change.

lols.

jiayou ba.

hopefully i dun change my decision soon.

ok readers except my precious jie.

u all can skip this part below.

cos it's not meant for u guys.

whahha.

To my precious jie:

ya read ur entry for me.

thanks.

rem this sentence below?

- zai wo sheng ming zhong bu nen mei you ni-

i said this to u 5 yrs ago.

and now im gonna say it to u agn.

hopefully u realli mean wad u say,

tat u miss mi.love me.care for me.concern me.

and most imptly.

i'll forever be in ur heart.

till death we part.

ilu.

dui bu qi if in aniway i hurt u agn.

jus wanna u noe hw i feel.

and pls rem.

u r the 1st that i wanna look for when im happi or sad.

u r the 1st i wish to see when im down.

u r the 1st i wanna hug when im sad.

u r the 1st i want u to wipe off my tears.

and u r the one i wanna share everything with.

not only now but for the rest of my life.

i cant live without u.

trust me.

how i wish everyday is fri.

so that i can see u.

seriously miss u.

though i tried so ard nt to contact u.

not to disturb u.

but every hr every min n every sec.

im missing u.

yuan liang wo if i still keep on sms u.

just cant kick tat habit off.

becos with ur sms or hearing ur voice each day.

it lighten up my day.

take care.

and jiayou for ur last 3 major projs and essay.

then we can enjoy more alr.

i wrote...
9:34 PM

Sunday, October 12, 2008;

when i woke up this morning.
i miss u super badly.
and nw im still missing u.

another 5 days.
=((

stay by my side forever alright.

i wrote...
1:51 PM

Saturday, October 11, 2008;

went suntec with jie for k boxing.
if u realised, i was kinda quiet at certain point of time.
i dunno but jus dunno wad to say and things went into my mind agn.
but u did make mi smiles after tat.
or is it me that try to play with u then i smiles?
i dunno.

sometime i jus feel the distance.
and i noe ur future saturday.
it wun be dedicated to me.
so guess i better learn to stay away.
if nt i wun be able to take it when time come.
lols.

and why i keep thinking that someone will replace me one day.
maybe nt the post of ur mei.
but maybe gd friends?
ha i dunno.
nvm nvm.
as im blogging all these. im emoing and wanna cry agn.

sometime i jus feel that i got so much to say but i din.
maybe nt topic between us.
but other topics like for intense myself?
just like im thinking so much of wanting to be more gal and blah blah blah.
when diana online i will wanna say so much abt myself to her.
jus like i wanna tell u too.
but i jus cant find the chance to say or i dun even noe hw to speak to u?
i dunno.
suddenly like so much to blog.
so much to say.
nv ending.=(

i noe u dun like reading all this stuffs.
esp abt us.abt u.
but i guess only this blog will tell u hw i feel.

haha wadever it is.
sista forever.
take care.

i wrote...
11:52 PM

Was on MC yest.
Went to the doctor and he said that im too stressful.
That why will want vomit and headache.
Lolls.

Learn to take things easy I guess.
Think sometime im really giving myself stress unknowingly.
Lol

When u r walking by my side yest.
So many things went through my mind.
Thinking u used to hold my hand.
U used to hook me and stuffs.
We seem so close.

But now.
Im really think that there is something missing.
I dunno.
Maybe im thinking too much.
Or becos we are old le ba.
or maybe cos u think that by hooking onto me you will have lesser chance of knowing more guys?
I dunno.

Jus wanna let you know.
You’re always a part of me. =))

Oh gosh.
Whenever I look at my stomach.
I cant help to be sad and disappointed.
Can anyone help me pls???

Whu know of anything to clear away or lighten stretchmarks?

im kind of sad after reading your blog.
but nvm.
lol.guess i can only keep in myself my tots.

i wrote...
1:30 PM

Wednesday, October 08, 2008;

the bus i took met with an accident this morning.
luckily it was nt serious.
=)

u must be damn hardworking ba.
as teachers always praise u for ur gd work.
keep up ya.i know u will do urself proud in the near future.
i noe u will be admire and loved by all ur students.
jiayou ba Miss Lee.
no matter wad.
yong yuan zai ni sheng bian.

time for gym tml.
been mths since i went.
cos kinda busy with stuffs.
shall start and nv stop for the sessions ya.
though it once a wk?
maybe we shld make it twice a wk. shall we?

guess im still nt having enough rest.
gonna rest rest and rest.

i miss my mum.
and i miss u 2.

i wrote...
9:11 PM

Tuesday, October 07, 2008;

waiting for friday to come.
so that i can see u.
wo xiang ni.

shall learn to slp early.

i wrote...
8:15 PM

Monday, October 06, 2008;

im still so sux that im nt sticking to wad i say.
haix.
guess only myself will noe wad im saying.

will our feeling fade?
will i forever be special in ur heart?
will u miss me when im nt at ur side?

i hope you do.

i wrote...
8:44 PM

Sunday, October 05, 2008;

i wrote...
9:20 PM

Was fri event a success?

i dunno..need to wait for meeting with Bosses then wil noe.

but i guess all enjoy it.?

including myself?

haha

after that stay back in Arena to chion.

bought diana , liyana and jie in.

lols.

they were so quiet in the 1st place

but after most of the staffs left.

they aso play.

all were damn high.

dancing non stop

and im drunk agn when i tot im ok.

lols.

and 1st time see jie so high.

she seldom dance and drink so much.

but that day, she dance non stop and keep on drinking till she also CMI.

see lar.instead of taking care of me she still drink so much.

aiyo.

and poor her.fall bcos of me.

im sorry =((

but i realli enjoy that nite.

more chioing session ok.

and thanks for turning up yest

dui bu qi for not understanding.

ilu.

i wrote...
9:03 PM

Thursday, October 02, 2008;

Finally, tml is Synergy'08
the long waiting event.
the event that we put so much efforts into it.
till almost all of us getting sick.
lols.
but we will cheng together de.
to make the event perfect and wonderful.
so hope eveything turn out well tml.
cos i think quite a few are worried for us?
lols.
no worries no worries tml will be alright =))

yest sumone ask me blog abt her
but i forget then jiu log off liao.
then she say i purposly de
lols i realli nv lor.
whahahaahaha
aniway.thanks for being there when im sad =))

i nv contact u.
u wun contact me.
i nv call u.
u also wun call me.
lols.
u said before to u just a call or greeting make ur day.
lols.im telling u.
to me also.
guess maybe u r realli too busy with ur stuffs.

shall go slp soon.

i wrote...
8:52 PM

Wednesday, October 01, 2008;

out whole day.
with my precious.
ya thanks for the company.

and i realli wanna save and go with u.
cos i also feel like going
but since u say nvm.
u can ask yy go.
then alright.
lols

dunno why.
somehw i felt that sumthing is missing.

nvm.
i will find back the missing part.

i wrote...
11:12 PM