Thanks bro for so randomly and msg me saying wanted to meet me.
ur msges does make mi smiles.
and thanks for the treat too.
and i hope you enjoy the badminton sessions.
hehe.
look tired huh.
seriously thanks for taking your time out to pei me becos u saw in my blog that im lonely.
Appreciate it =)) hugs.


saw the pics.
last time u used to always hug me.
but nw...
damn long then i got a hug.
and i rem u say on my bdae u will gif mi a precious hug.
but u din.

is it cos nw ur shen fen cannot do all this stuffs?
nvm.
jus a comment


hope tml everything will be fine.
i wanna enjoy
i wanna smiles.
grant me pls.

Super no mood.
My mind cant stop running.
I just cant stop thinking.



Silence.
Cos there is nth tat I can do.

looking forwards for wed and fri.
cos went is PH (can slp late) and fri is Synergy.


but it will be boring tml.
trying to find ppls out but all seems so busy.
so think i shall head hm den.



nv endless memories is wad i wan.
last forever pls.

Woohoo.
1st time make up in front of so many ppls.
With the perm hair for company photo shoot.
Done by a professional stylist.
(I got free makeover.hehe)
Haha a lot ppls say I look pretty.
I think not bad though.
Quite like the overall.
Haha so nande to hear me say this right.
But maybe this really makes mi change?
Haha. We shall see.
And I will upload the pics once I got back my laptop =))

Went bball with the same ppls + henry
As usual play til half then got to shift to Blk260
Becos of some stupis classes.
Then play with a grp of guys.
Eeeeeeeee.
They lose liao hor keep on use height eat us.
Then even though we got 2 gals they still anyhow zhuang.
Then ranson almost fight with 1 of them.

But in the end we still won.
All thanks to my shooting huh.
Lol ok bhb.( but it true though)

Then play with that roti prata grp agn.
As usual.
Er xin.and see him play really can laugh.
Then henry was like he look like “yang guo”
Use 1 hand 1.
And u noe wad!!!!!!!!
He make my hand bleed.
Got 2 cuts lor.
Kaoz!!!!!!!!!!!
Gonna burn burn burn him until he die next time.
Whahahahhahaah


Then dinner at BK.
Then off we go home.
Always enjoy bball session although sumtime I played till v pek chek.
Need more exercise =))

Actually I really hope 1 day I can see James play bball.
Or maybe play with him.
Guess he quite pro??

quite lots of days din blog le.
haha
cos im busy playing with my PSP.
but this 2 days realli super tired.
so yest din play and dun intend to play today also.
wanna slp early. =))
(if nt gonna nag by someone agn)


im feeling quite sad today.
becos of some particular person.
i tot i could put hope on him.
but think im just dreaming.
decided to stay away.



still thought of the past.
the pic of me.
the change from then till now.
hais.
cant help not to be sad.

though i dun wanna be sad.
and wanna smiles more in my next chapter of life which just started.


nvm.
im giving myself another 1 yr time.
though my words always said but nt done.
if this 1 yr im still the same or worst.
i'll give up on myself.

thanks to those who celebrated my bdae for me last fri.
those it was simple.
but thanks.


and thanks jie for the 2 yrs efforts.
it can nv be compare to wad i have done for you.
thanks alot.
and realli sorry that i wasn't my best self on tat nite.
i wan my part 3 present soon alright. =))
oh ya, v thanks to ask qin wei to call me to say "Happy birthday"
realli was a surprise, and it gd to hear from him after so many years.
-ilu-
-nv be apart-


wanna jiayou.
seriously.
i need to jiayou,
=))
becos i wanna stop envying on others.

mix feeling again.

actually was quite happy today.
maybe becos tml is my bdae.
but becos of some reasons.
it totally spoilt my day and almost make me cry.
i wanna hide.
i wanna MIA.
i only wan you by my side.

i jus wanna be happy.
i just wanna smiles like all of u asked me too.
but it so hard 4 me to do so.

tml is my last day of being a teenager.
after tml, i will be a adult alr.
i wanna learn to grow up.
but but.
why still like this?

dun wanna think cos im realli realli tired.
jus hope when i woke up tml.
i wil be smiling.
cos it's my bdae =)
the most impt bdae in my life.
after this, i may not be enjoying so much alr.


ppls whu will be celebrating 4 me tml.
make mi smiles alright?


so fast and im 21.
also dunno is gd or bad.
jus hope things will improved and everyone will be happy.
no worries is wad i wan.


take care everyone.
hope u guys wil find sumone tat u love to treasure and cherish.
just like i got my precious jie.
yes, jasmine aka my jie, the one i love, treasure and cherish.
but pls. not allow to snatch her away from me.
NO ONE IS TO DO TAT!!
cos she belong to me =)

trying to blog more happy things.
becos im an adult nw.
wanna be better.



but can i do so?
or wil i continue to be emo??



im tired.

im still quite sad to lost tat voucher.
maybe it's fate that i cant wear tat sleeveless.
lols.

jus got back from my 21st bdae chalet.
the v 1st thing im gonna do is.
Thanks to those who have turned up at my chalet.
and many thanks to those to those who have help out and turned up for both days.
and many many thanks for all the presents.

Im happy because i got alot of stuffs i wanted.
i love all the presents man.
Thanks ppls.
and i realli enjoyed.
it was fun.
it's was memorable for everyone to be there singing bdae songs for me. =))
taking pics.
lols.
though it is over.
but i will rem it in my heart for life =))


though i dun look gd on that day.
but i wun gif up trying to look gd and slim down.
hehe.
jiayou shaohua.
cos i noe alot ppls awaiting for me to be pretty pretty 1 day.
hehe.
i'll try my best ok ppls.
hehe.


and to Ms Jasmine Aka Precious jie.
thanks for everyting that you have done.
no words to describe hw touch i am.
and hw precious u r to me.
you are the best.
i appreciate everything that you have done.
be it small things or big things.
trust me.
im happy.
and im fortunate to have you as my jie.
Million thanks to you jie.
Muacks.


gonna be super bz for sept and oct.
lols.
str chalet + wedding every weekend.
jiayou together ba =))


haha im looking forwards to fri.
=x

so fast.
the day that we are toking abt mths ago.
it coming.
and that is my 21st bdae chalet.
guess i will be more excited tml ba.

now still nt realli in the mood.
becos of quite a no. of issue.
and wad most imptly is.
my mum is damn sick nw.
she is having fever.
and sore throat.
totally no voice.
see liao also xin tong man,
ask her go doc she dun wan.
and ask her dun go work later le.
duno she will ting ant.
haix.


zhi xi wang.
when i woke up tml.
everything will be fine =)

and i wil be contented.

will i be happy?
it once in a life time.
either i wil have gd memories abt it.
or bad.
lols.

hopefully a gd 1.


meinu called at 530 jus nw.
wanna mit mi up tp pass mi present.
cos she is unable to attend my chalet.
so mit her.
then tok awhile then jiu left le.

her card makes me think of the past.
and ...................
but aniway.
it the past.
so let it remain as memories ba.



so ppls whu will be attending on sat.
see u guys =))

2 more days.
hope i will enjoy.



and v fast.
my chalet will over.


think im realli lacking of money.
and after my bdae.
got to start saving.
becos too many things for me to settle.

bdae cuming i shld be looking super forwards.
but while i was walking hm just nw.
im thinking.
how i wish i will only celebrate my 21st bdae 1 yr later.
becos at least the given 1 yr.
i can do something about my body.
and not like nw.
whenever i look into the mirror.
im like ...freak..
and i have to be in this body shape to celebrate my 21st bdae.


or the best if can.
let me go back to when im sec 2
when i can wore a dress.
or maybe sec 4 is enuff.
because then.
i will take care of myself and nt letting myself to turn into this shape.
but think im just love dreaming.
because time would nv turn back.
if it could.. it will be so wonderful.



instead of ppls cuming to my chalet and say.
" wow. u become more n more prettier"
or
" you become slimmer le"


i think they will cum saying.
"wow.why u becum like tat?"
or maybe
"you fai fu le"
haha.lols.
which i dun realli wanna hear anithing abt all this.
becos i will be affected and im always affected =((
then i will be super sad abt it.


and last time ppls see me they will like.
this 1 confirm a sportsman.
sch teachers.coaches all damn kan hao me.
be it bball.badminton or scoccer.
im always chosen to represent the school.
to lead the team, to attend leadership course.
to be announce in front of the whole sch of my sports result.
to be the vice-cap 4 1 of the house in the sch.
to be vice-cap in badminton in pri sch.
then captain for bball in sec sch.
i got A1 for my CCA.
ppls believe that i will be better.


but now.........
when i told ppls i play bball.
they will like huh?????
dun look like le.
kan lai kan qu dou bu xiang.
or will ask.
u play bball???
i say ya..
then they say play guard ah?
i say forwards..
they will like huh?????

cos they sure thinking i can run mehs?


every little action or word by ppls wil affect me.
i noe im realli weak most of the time.
and i cried easily.
but i guess that mi ba.


i dunno why i blog all this.
but sudden type type jiu type so much le.


and as i type.
im feelin so =(
im lousy i guess.

woohoo.
past 2 days were wonderful for me.
fri went bball after work.
haha i was so zhun tat day la.
keep on burning ppls.
whahahahha.
then 1 of our friend so bu shuang a grp of guys cos they play v rough with us.
then he wanna fight then we stop him.
usually play bball im so rough la.
but tat day i ok le.
haha.
then as usual.
dinner then back to jie hse.


yest was great.
went to 5 hrs k box with jie.
haha think quite worth it cos got finger gd.free flow coke and sprite.
haha.
since till 7 then cos jie say feel like eating Gelara so we went eat lor.
haha then noe wad.
we went to the S'pore Flyer.
haha
it both our 1st time agn and wad most impt is.
It Jie treat!!!
haha she says that it's my bdae present.
haha
tat place like airport lor.
need go thru security check and stuffs.
lols.
aha im happy.
though the person to go with mi is nt my bf but her.
is special.
realli special moments to mi.
=)))
ilu. *shy*

then saw tong liang.
he working there.
he becum shuai agn.
lols.haha

then after tat we went marina square.
saw this NBA things.
shooting competition
then i was saying.
aiyo.
we better nt join cos we wanna gif others a chance.
haha but those participants reali CMI la.
hahahha
if i go so champion 1.
hahahhaa okok kidding.
then we went hm.

that ended my wonderful day =))


now at jie hse cos think she scare i bored so ask mi cum lor.
haha.

and and.
my family coming back tonite.
haha im happy!!!!!!!!
though i will only see them after work tml.
hehe.


6 more days to my celebration. =))

family went overseas.
it's the 2nd day.
im feeling so lonely.

mood wasn't gd recently.
maybe cos too tired.
maybe cos too stress.
maybe think too much.
i dunno.


thanks for ur company.
though i still feel lonely.
feel empty.


and i seriously cant stop thinking.
thinkin too much
way too much.
if this goes on, i dunno wad wil i become.


im just being too supicious and sensitive at time.
forget it la.
no one care also.



sometime i realli feel like running away.
disappear
and nv be back.



Thanks Henry.
at least u took the initiative to msg mi.
to try cheer mi up.
thanks.

was damn stressful this few days.
end up having terrible headach.
n i have been wanting to vomit 4 almost everyday since a mth ago.
dunno wad to do la.
like tat hw to drink?
i sure puke de.

didn't expect my bdae expenses to cost so much.
when i calculate the amt im so stunt la.
lols.
then make mi so stress la.
but i guess it ok la.
cos once in a lifetime ma.
no choice la.
and it i wanna open chalet de ma.
lols.
wad to do.


just nw when im on my way hm.
was thinking.
even though i got so many exs.
i can say.
wo mei you zheng zheng de tang guo nian ai.
lols.
nv realli been in love before.
ha.
so when wil the true 1 realli appear?
hw long more am i going to wait?

or wil i stay single forever?
i dunno.
i need love man.
haha


been realli emo agn recently


back hm.
saw them packing bag
im sad


1 wk to my chalet.
why am i still nt happy?