Sunday, August 31, 2008;
finally i can blog.
this 2 days passes quite fast 4 mi.
let me start off with yest.
yest was COMMSERV family day.
lols.
it was fun though we miss out quite alot of adventure activities.
due to the rain.
haha but but.
u noe wad.
a 7 yr old kid rock climb up tp 6 story.
lols.
and tat is my little bro!!!!!!!!
haha he damn pro la.
the youngest rock climer i have seen.
lols and im pro of him man!!!!
haha then after that follow by indoor games.
all the games so stupid.
and my mum and maid got for-feeted.
lols.
so funny!!!!!
enjoy myself.
poor jie cant rock climb cox when she wanna climb then rain le.
dun sad ok?
sorry wor.
and i do hope u enjoy.
then after tat jie n me went suntec cos she wanna go IT show.
so we went lor.
i wanna go K box de but too rush le so nv
haha we go soon ok?
then after tat as usual pei her take 133 then we parted.
and today i wokr up at 11+
then went alter jean then cut hair.
cox jie commented tat my hair nt nice.
then i jiu go cut lor.
aha quite short lar.
lols.
quite some time since i have this length alr.
haha
then took a nap.
went play badminton with maid and mum agn.
go sunplaza 4 dinner.
spent quite alot lor.
ahahhaa
and also bought a shirt 4 my maid.
think she damn happy lar.
and show her my photo albumb.
she say i more cute nw.
ok is a better word instead of fatter only.
haha but nvm.
cos im working towarrds it.
haha =)
haha less then 2 wks to my 21 bdae chalet!!!
IM GETTING MORE N MORE EXCITED!!!!!
=))
waiting 4 the day to cum.
waiting 4 sumone to give mi a kiss.*hinting*
i wrote...
9:21 PM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008;
just got back an hr ago from badminton.
lols haha must be wondering i go play with colleague right?
NONO!!
today dun have badminton session.
haha.i went to play with my mum,mei and maid.
ok 3 Ms.
lols.
haha it my 1st time in my 21 year to play with my mum lor.
haha it was fun though we play 4 an hr onli.
hehe.
hope to have more of this sessions together.
=))
haha and today i was viewing someone friendster.
then i saw the pics of her and her best friends.
then memories came into mi.
then at the same time, i start to think agn.
actually i find myself to be damn bless.
to have that "cute" and "pretty" jie of mine.
to be there whenever i need her.
to console mi whenever im sad.
to hug me whenver i cry.
to protect me even though she herself also v scared.
to take the initiative to tok to me when she noe im in bad mood.
to help me carry my bags and stuffs at time when i look more man then her.
to help me buy med for my leg when im in pain.
to tried her best to make mi smiles whenver im =(
and alot alot more la....
nv ending one..
cos she is too nice alr.
haha she must be smiling if she got to read this.
cos i say her till she is so perfect alr.
haha hor ah jie?
just wanna tell you.
please forgive and forget my stubborness not at times but always.
and the damn sux attitude i gave u at times
you must love me for wad i am ok?
u r too impt to make mi feel tat way.
(u shld noe wad i mean ah)
=) SMiles.
this is the precious jie of mine =)
haha ok change topic.
today my entry damn long ah.
haha.
and i seriously cannot stop the COKE addict lar.
lols trying to lessen but still cant.
then got nag.
lols ok i will try ok.
noe everyone wei le wo hao =))
went to sakae yest with managers and team leader to have our confirmation meal.
lols almost a yr le.finally we had that meal.
haha i try alot alot of new stuffs lor.
all thanks to them.
haha if nt i will always be eating the same old things.
and i got a pair of jean and t-shirt yest.=)
i wrote...
9:09 PM
Monday, August 25, 2008;
was looking at my old pics yest.
then feeling so sad.
becos last time can say i still nt fat.
but ever since i go into poly.
more n more fat lor.
think lack of training ba.
omg.
reali gonna jiayou la..!!!
more sport sessions pls.
i wanna ppls to envy mi then mi to envy ppls.
haha i think the following pic look so sweet.
i wrote...
8:49 PM
Sunday, August 24, 2008;
i wanna look nice on my bdae!
i wanna look nice in the photos!
haha.
so less coke.less bubble tea.less fried fd.
more plain water.milk,juice and fruits.
lols.
19 more days only.
im happy.
and hope i realli wil be happi on tat day!
a memorable 1 pls.
haha lols.
shaohua turning 21 soon!!
i wrote...
3:24 PM
enjoy my day out yest.
although we didn't have enuff slp.
cos we play till 1+am the previous nite then slp.
haha.
though the day is simple.
be it shopping or in the library.
im happy to spend every moment with u.
both our 1st time at the sky garden
im happy for the past 2 days. =)smiles.love ya.i saw a veri nice wallet yest!
lols.
i wrote...
1:10 PM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008;
im feeling so sick lar.
so xinku.
coughing so badly.
i could hardly tok la.
fast recovery pls.
=((
im so fan.so sad.i just wanna live happily.cant i?is this wish of mine v difficult to cum true?and can say 1.5 mths to my synergy program.but till now still nth done.hais.i dunno.cfm stress up when time cum.my precious.imu.2 more days.
i wrote...
8:51 PM
Tuesday, August 19, 2008;
mc today.
lols.
i seems to be getting more sick now.
omg.i wana recover.
if nt tml work cfm v xinku.
haha.
ur call make mi so much better.hearing ur voice make mi happy.thanks jie.ilu.
i wrote...
8:29 PM
Monday, August 18, 2008;
ppls just dunno that they have hurt others unknowinly.or they din noe that their little action or word can hurt the other person easily.and they nv care hw those being hurt will feel.im realli sick now.
i wrote...
9:32 PM
haha i saw this and i wanna laugh.
anyway.this is my newly found friend from vietam.
her name is Hong hong.
aren't she pretty?
omg.
i think she is pretty.(LOL)
i wrote...
8:47 PM
i realli hate myself.hate myself for being so lousy.hate myself for not doing things that i promise myself to do.hate myself for always being sad.hate myself to be so sensitive.hate myself for not having enuff motivation and determination.hate myself for having so much to worry for.hate myself for more and more things...............everything seems so negative to me.im just not leading a gd life.can i just be gd enuff to do the things i wan?to become wad i wan.and to get wad i wan.im just not fit enuff to do anithing now.why am i always a loser in everythin?
when then i can be better?
till now.im still trying to escape.but whether im here ant.it doesn't matter.cos no 1 will care even if im gone 1 day.
i wrote...
8:09 PM
No ppls msg mi.
No ppls call mi
No ppls contact mi.
Lolls.
Phone silent everyday.
The only time when I will hear phone ringing is only when my mum call me.
Or when I take the initiative to msg ppls.
Why cant ppls take initiative and msg mi instead?
Fucking loner.
i wrote...
4:42 PM
Im feeling so fan.
Im feeling so troubled.
Im feeling so lost.
Im feeling so empty.
Wanna find sumone to tok to.
Wanna voice out to sumone everything.
The 1st person I tot of in my mind everytime is u.
But this time round I need to keep within myself.
Becos I shldn’t disturb u.
I dunno.
Sumtime just hate the damn life I have.
Why cant I live happier?
Why cant we have a peaceful life?
Why cant I just live on and stop worrying abt this and that.
Argh!!
Stop all this crapss now.
Or im going break down.
i wrote...
3:45 PM
Sunday, August 17, 2008;
every wk im looking forward to.
it friday and sat!!
becos that the only 2 days that i can spend my time with u.
hugs. take care and misses.study hard.though i cannot help you physically.i will support u mentally.and sorry for mt stubborness all this while.just to let you noe.i love you the most.
i wrote...
8:34 PM
the time that i hated most is when im parting with u.i miss you.do you miss mi like hw i miss u?terrible headach.
i wrote...
6:32 PM
Friday, August 15, 2008;
Oh shit.
Im feeling so tired and slpy agn.
Think battery flat liao.
I need sum slp. =(((
Why I finish work so later today?
So sad.
Less time.lols.
I dun wan. =((
i wrote...
1:57 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2008;
mix feeling today.
happy and sad.
sad cos....
yest nite i still think alot till i cant slp.
this morning i still think alot.
i think of u and miss u till i msg and say "i miss u"
everytime we msg it make mi even worst.
and wanting to runin everytin.
u wun msg mi agn if i din reply ur msg.
we r always quarreling bcos of the same issue (ok it all cos of me)
wanted to mit u up but always cant.
wanted u to look mi up but im jus always dreaming.
sumtime wad u thinking is nt wad im thinking.
......it goes on n on.
happy cos...
i called u up and things was ok.
i heard ur voice and it make mi even happier.
tml is friday.
ur msges show mi that im impt to u.
i see ur efforts in explaining to mi.
even though the things keep repeating.
u still hasn't give up on mi.
...
add on happy thing...
thanks nicia for miting mi 4 lunch.
though it tat half hr only and u got to travel down from boonlay.
I Graduated from my 2 days course!!!!!
lols.
ok that shall end my day.
dun ask mi "hw r u" today.
becos my ans will be happy and sad.
can i give u wad u wan?the five letter...
i wrote...
8:41 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008;
im still feeling nt gd.
still feeling upsets.
i dunno why.
have been thinkin alot.
cant stop thinking.
before i slp i think.
till i cant slp.
when i on my way go 4 course i think.
when during my break time i think.
after my course on the way hm i think.
basically every moment i have been thinking.
and it make mi headach everytime i think,
wad wrong?
noe the prob lie only in mi.
but i dunnno.
sorry cos i choose to escape.
i choose to hide.
i choose to runaway.
whenever im feeling upsets or moody.
it jus affect my every movement.
it jus stop mi from toking.
it jus stop mi from doing anithing.
the things that i will properly do is think.cry and isolate.
and i wil go to bed early.
becos in the dark.
no one can see mi cry.
no one can see mi tear.
i dunno.
but i have been realli emo recently agn.
guess being emo will always be part of me.
im tired.seriously tired.
i wrote...
6:51 PM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008;
''You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.''this sentence is so true.
lols.
i dunno but i realli feel insecure.
no matter wad u say.
i cant feel anithing.
starting to walk away.
MIA.
i wrote...
8:16 PM
You told mi that u got a lot msges.
Lolls mean u r smsing with a lot other ppls.
Haha.
Nt I wan to think.
But ……………
Haha.
nvm.
There is nth I can do.
i wrote...
5:13 PM
So bored at work.
I got nth to do nw.
Then sit at my desk stoning.
Feeling so tired.
I wanna slp.
I need more slp.
=((
Suddenly feel so much wanting to play bball.
But den, no one to play with.
Sianz.
Why im like a loner?
Since now I can stay out late liao
Why am I still going hm str after work?
Super sianz lar.
Haiz.
I wanna enjoy.=)
Sumbody jio mi out pls.
i wrote...
1:45 PM
Monday, August 11, 2008;
it wun take long to send a msg or email.
so if that does make my day.
does lighten my day.
why nt do so?
lols.
i always envy u.
i wanna be like u.
i wanna improve like u.
i wanna change !!!!
so tired cos of work today.
lols.
but i think this wk wil be fast.
becos got course on wed and thur
lols but super far la.
at TIONG bAHRU.
LOLS.
OMG.
1 day onli.and im missing u.
i wrote...
8:38 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2008;
times flies,
so fast and it's sun !
means tml gonna work agn =((
why the time that i can spend with u is always so little?
times jus goes so fast when im with u.=((
i wanna more time.
i need more time.
alot of things did went thru my mind.
lols
why u r always on top of me?
lols
this is so unfair!!
just like wad my mama say abt unfairness.
but i seriously dun like her to tok abt this topic.
it turn mi off.
i just hate it.
oh ya hasnt't mention abt yest.
the firework were beautiful!!!
this time rnd with the companion of 1 more person.
haha
and then drinking at my hse.
lols think we r nuts to do this
but it my ideas though
cos i dun wanna my nite to end so early.
and jie was freaking high.
lols.
even my mama concuded.
lols =)) that funny of u
but i like it.
realli enjoy myself though we dun haf rnd 2.
and i hope we can have more of this session together =x
and for that sumone, please rem to bring ur contact lense boxes and solution out next time.so that you can slp better. bleahx =x
so they went hm.
and im a loner agn.
hhaa
lols.
bt after tat mit jie at amk cos she is so SOTONG to forget to bring her adaptor back.
wanted to send to her hse but she say mit mi amk then jiu ok lor.
haha
and she claim that cos she miss mi too much and wanted to see mi more that why purposly nv bring hm.
CRAPSSS..
and at tat time when she call im happily slping de lor.
haha
lols but nvm la.
lucky is u
think if it other ask them cum my hse take themself.
u shld be happi that i so le yi bring down 4 u ok?
=))
and and seriously.
i still feeling v weird and uncomfortable having an addtional person in my hse.
lols.
but i got no choice and no says.
im awaiting 4 fri agn.becos that wil be the time tat i can see u.hugs.i miss u lots.though we just parted like 2.5 rs ago?I LOVE YOU.emoing agn.
i wrote...
7:43 PM
Thursday, August 07, 2008;
im feeling so so bored la.
cos no one to chat too.
then alone at hm.
then like idiot staring at the com.
whahahha.
loner though.
but im hapi cos it friday tml !muackx =))
i wrote...
8:51 PM
dun understand why when there is true love.
ppls dun treasure.
while those tat wanted to find their true love.
they cant find.
and why there are so many ppls out there.
go into relationship 4 the sake of just needing a partner?
and why when i wanna find my true love.
i cant find?
that life.
but taking up and letting go is it realli so easy?
ppls.
cherish ur love one.
once gone, they wil nv be urs again.
i wrote...
8:09 PM
Wednesday, August 06, 2008;
jus came back from my badminton session.
left leg super pain agn.
haiz
and im super tiring now.
how man i suppose to go to the gym tml?
but nvm, i will try my best.
hurts.
2 more days.=))
i wrote...
9:25 PM
Tuesday, August 05, 2008;
this few days v stress cos of work.
end up having headach n stuffs.
realli nt feeling v well.
why nv reply my msg agn?or if nt jiu took super long to reply?haiz nvm.awaiting 4 fri to come.so that i can enjoy.gonna be so lonely in sept.i need companion.
i wrote...
8:59 PM
Monday, August 04, 2008;
gdnite precious jie.take care.miss u lots.hugs and muacks! =))study hard.jiayou shaohua!
go towards wad u r aiming 4.dun always show others that u r a loser.prove it to the rest.
i wrote...
9:48 PM
i guess we will start to drift.
becos u wun care as much as i do.
u wun miss mi like hw i miss u.
u wun wan to c mi like hw i wanna see u.
times lesser.
but i guess it doesn't matter to u.
anithing ba.
take 1 step @ a time.
haha
cos it's always one sided.
reply i got always make mi think tat with mi or not it doesn't impt at all.
haha maybe im thinking too much agn.
i dunno.
im sure im gonna be a loner agn.takecare.imu.
i wrote...
8:16 PM
Sunday, August 03, 2008;
been doing the blog for the whole day.
can say full 8.5 hrs im sitting in front of the com to do it.
internet super lousy.
keep d/c.
kind of pek check.
but i nv gif up doing it.
cos i wanna it to do well.
yehs.
guys, please visit
www.japalang-fashion.blogspot.comand give your full support!! =)
u starting sch tml.i will miss u de.wo zhen de hao xiang ni.without u by my side im realli feeling so lonely.love u my precious.endless misses.i love you.
i wrote...
9:53 PM
my 1st time @ wild wild wet
it was so fun !!
went with jie,zhu long and kajun.
lols.
play till v tired.
but i enjoyed myself.
then went to watch "money nt enuff 2".
act the movie was like nt realli nice to mi.
until the ending part.
it was so sad till i cried.
cos i think of sumthing.
yehs.
then went back hm alone.
im nt feeling gd.
i think alot though i dun wan to.
every little action mean alot to mi.
everytime i try nt to think but i do.
i wanted to just let it go.
everytime when im alone.
i wanna cry
even in the bus yest.
im just upsets.
pure upsets.
loneliness.
i felt it.
and tis time rnd.
there are realli no one to turn to.
i felt that im realli all alone nw.
why cant i just be simple.
and enjoy and be happy?
i want too but i cant.
guess in my life.
im born to be a loner.
why i keep on thinkin tat u r hiding sumthing?emoing.
i wrote...
1:48 PM
Saturday, August 02, 2008;
woohoo.
a great hug by koh wei bin yest.
whahha.
all of us were so happy to see each other.
think cos too long nv mit le.
haha.
though yest play til kind of pek chek.
(of cos not becos of our own ppls)
but i enjoy myself.
i always enjoyed playing with them.
esp weibin and airen.
lols.
see u ppls soon.=)
love them man.
looking forwards for Wild Wild Wet later!!
woohoo!! =)
i wrote...
9:20 AM