gonna start my life without u.
i miss u. =(
finally im here to blog.
but guess no one wil read it cos it's has been so so long since i last updated
shi ren de hua dou hui ren wei zhe ge blog bu chun zai le.
act dun wanna blog de
but then recently too many things happen to mi.
im feeling so so damn fan .stressed up.sad.n i dunno lar.
all sort of feeling.
jus wanna shout in out from my heart.
jus wanna cried all my tears out.
i dunno this 2 wks i alr cried hw many time alr.
im realli feeling so so sux.
feeling so so empty.
so so dunno wad to do.
so so many things happen.
wad the fuck.
wad wrong with my life.
why im having such a fuck up life.
yes.
ppls always say there are always ups and downs in life.
but why it seems like from last time til nw.
it has been down.
so so damn down.
im nt happy.=(
im realli not happy.
yes im emo.
yes im weak.
a little tings n i will cry.
but i dun wish to cry.
i wan to smile.
smile from my heart.
i dun wan to be sad.
i wanna have a happy life.
but y?
y cant i have one?
im jus a failure in everything.
in any circumstances or wad.
im nt of ani help.
because i cant even help myself.
i cant even pull myself up.
i dun even have the confident.
i dun even have the motivation.
i dun have the determination.
n i dun have the yong qing.
i jus have nth in me.
y im so mei yong.?
dun tel mi tat im nt mei yong.
becos i dun think so.
i feel so ..
i dunno hw to describe.
will my future always heppening tings like tat?
am i going to be sad forever?
i hate my life.
i hate myself.