Thursday, August 31, 2006;
can u love mi like u used to?
do u nid mi?
why when u lose sumthing then u wil noe to treasure it more.?
i wrote...
8:43 PM
bad daez.
tings din turn out the way i wan to be.
actually everything was alright.
till i saw sumone unhappy.
then i decided to isolate myself n let them haf fun.
then in the end im over there sad myself.
cries.
wad all tis 4?
do u realli nid her n nt mi?
those feeling wasnt gd.
why everything i do 4 u.
she wil be there?
argh!!
since i wan u back.
why i care abt others feeling?
wad the fcuk.
kill mi pls.
ni zhen de na meh yu yao ta ma?
i wrote...
8:03 PM
Wednesday, August 30, 2006;
Attachment details out.
im attach to Allied Ordnance of Singapore Pte Ltd.
at Ayer Rajah Cresent.
AOS building.
duno whr sia.
haha.
heard it sumwhere next bouna vista n boon lay there.
far sia.
got to wake up early everydae.=x
do hope it's a nice company n the ppls there are friendly.
wad more.
assign mi easy tasks.
whahaha.
is this fate?
or isit mi tat think too much?
i wrote...
6:18 PM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006;
wad sld i do?
can anione tel mi?
can u tel mi?
im confused.
confused of wad i sld do.
y did i love u in the 1st place?
wil u treasure n love mi like u used to?
i wrote...
11:06 PM
coughing badly.
poor mi.
but blame it on myself ba.
ha.
still drink coke.
haha.
tml kan chiong sia.
i love my duck duck.
ducky couple 4ever.=)
i wrote...
10:27 PM
Monday, August 28, 2006;
tired but i enjoy cos i can see u.
seeing u jus make mi =)
though i may nt show it at times.
imu.
let natural take its course.
i wrote...
10:52 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006;
great dae.
with bball n of cos seeing u.
my face so red nw cos of the sun.
but im feeling v unwell.
=(
din eat the whole dae le.
try to eat but duno why kip wan vomit so nv eat lor.
yups.
the moment when u hold my hand.
i jus feel like holdin it tight n nv let go.
i wrote...
10:25 PM
Thursday, August 24, 2006;
sumtime i realli wan to gif up.
bcos i dun wanna be the stupid n stubborn gal animore le.
but then.
i jus cant bear to let u go.
=(
i wrote...
10:21 PM
woohoo.
hooray!
i finished my last paper in the poly!!
i dun nid study le.
hehe.!!
so soon i'll grad le.
but then kinda sianz cos duno after grad duno wad am i gonna do.
stress but then nvm.
tis 1 wk i shall relax myself n must recover my sickness.
cos feeling sick is realli xinku.
my mama xinku too.
cos she gt no off dae.
poor her.
poor us.
why u dun wanna let mi take care of u?
why u dun wanna mi to make u happy?
do u noe hw much i nid u?
nt tat i wan a partner or wad.
nt tat i wan to be attached.
i wan noone else but u.
cos i onli love u.
ni ji shi cai yao hui lai?
i realli duno wad i can do le.
i wrote...
6:20 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006;
running a fever.
v v xinku.
all thx to mi duno hw to take care of myself.
all the fried food + the hot weather + stress cos of my exams + lookin after the kids everynite.
=(
i wan to rest.
hope tml wil feel beta.
i wrote...
8:27 PM
yest nite.
i cant slp.
or rather tis few nite.
i cant slp.
everynite also there thinkin.
=(
i found out tat i realli realli love u alot.
till the extend tat i realli wan to hold u.
i wan to haf u n cherish u agn.
i'll nv let u go.
but i dun haf tat chance.
i told myself nt to let u love her more.
cos the more u love her.
the less u wil cum back to mi.
i must stop u frm loving her.
nt tat i wan to spoilt u all.
but that i realli bu xi wang ni he bia ren zai yi qi.
u belong to mi.
i noe im selfish.
n wad others say.
u love sumone u gt to let them go.
nah.
wo zhuo bu dao.
i realli cant.
i wan to gif u the happiness.
i nv haf such a strong feeling b4.
no1 can ever replace the love i haf 4 u.
i gt so so much to say.
but i shall nt continue typing.
take care.
imu like crazy.
i wrote...
9:51 AM
Monday, August 21, 2006;
was it a mistake?
oops.
im sorry.
cos i wun be able to take it.
u said u gt so much to say but duno hw to?
jus wad is it?
jus a strong feeling is sumthing -ve.=(
im scared.
i look like my 5 mths pregnent.=x
i wrote...
10:20 PM
why????
why issit on the 17 of july?
why issit on the same dae as us?
im sad.
im realli sad.
like tat.
it mean nth to u inside ur heart alr.=(
when r u cuming back?
i wrote...
7:01 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006;
shaohua.wad wrong with u la???
can u stop all tis?
argh!!
crazy soon!
im seriously so pek chek everydae.
so much feel like nt staying hm everydae n go n haf my own life.
freak.
life sux!!
i wrote...
10:56 PM
Saturday, August 19, 2006;
shaohua shaohua.wad happen to u?
y r u doing tis to urself???
sighs.
knock mi down n nv wake up.
i wrote...
10:41 PM
shaohua say " stop all tis right away, no more next time.u sld noe wad to do frm tml onwards."
felt realli so auntie recently.
with auntie jas.
haha
2 aunties buying fan n food.
whaha.
fwlt so nice whenever i go out with u.=)
mug mug mug.
i gt no time left!
i wrote...
12:07 AM
Thursday, August 17, 2006;
did i lose u as a friend?
i dun wanna.
u r sumone tat i can look 4 whenever im down.
tot u said tat u'll always be there 4 mi?
tot u said tat whenever i gt prob i can look u up?
but wad's happening nw?
jus bcos of that incident?
jus bcos im stubborn?
i noe u wun get to read my blog.
but i wish u can read this.
bcos i wan u to noe.
i nid u as a friend.
i dun wanna lose a great friend like u.
hope tat u can gan shou dao hw i felt.
it hurts.
right deep inside my heart.
i wrote...
10:55 PM
cut my hair alr.
mum felt disappointed.
act i felt tat way too.
although it look nice.
cos v v boy.
n im sure u gonna be disappointed too.
but nvm.
cos i told myself tat hair can grow de.
although it take time.
am i going back to my oldself?
i wrote...
1:40 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006;
forever so disappointed with myself.
why?
why cant things turn out to be better?
im sad.
i dun wan it to be tis way.
i realli can gan shou dao hw xinku my mum is le.
doing all the hsework.
looking after the kids n working.
n guys realli cmi.
they cant even do simple things like clearing their stuffs after eating.
help to wash the dishes.
help to clear the bin.
they jus simply cant do anithing in the hse.
n im more n more like a hsewife.
jus like my mum.
wil tis be the onli bdae celebration u haf 4 mi?
dun wanna be a loner on tat dae.
but gt feeling i wil.
cos no1 rem mi.
i wrote...
11:44 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006;
looking at others profile.
was thinking.
when then can i be as xingfu as them?=(
think u v xingfu nw ba.
but y arent the 1 tat make u xingfu?
sighs.
felt so lonely.
alone at hm.
everyone out at the chalet.
cant go cos i got work.
sighs.
im feelin so tired.
yet i wanna earn alot alot money.
i realli realli cant imagine.
if 1 dae u wil to leave mi.
wad realli gonna happen to mi?
cos it's like.
u r part of my life alr.
dun ever leave mi hao ma?
or rather hao bu hao?
imu.
ni zhen de hen zhong yao.
no 1 can ever replace u inside my heart.
-miss pro-
i wrote...
12:06 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006;
although my national dae was nt nt fun n all.
but i love it.
cos gt miss pro to be with mi 4 both daez.
thx alot.
ilu too.=)
i wrote...
9:18 PM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006;
im feeling soo soo tired.
with work.study.n lookin after siblings.
yes.
tml is national dae le.
the dae tat im always so excited with.
but y all of the sudden.
i feel nth.
i dun feel happy.
not at all.
mi:celebrate with mi on national dae alright?
min:ok.no prob.
didnt we said tat we wanna celerate together?
but i noe.
yehs.
it's impossible nw.
still rem we r together during the last national dae.
nvm.
cos i gt the 1 i love most to celebrate 4 mi.
although no firework.
although no late at nite.
but yups.
thx 4 everything.
u r right.
if i think he worth nth to mi.
then dun celebrate 4 him.
but nono!!
he worth sumthing 4 mi.
cos cum to think of it.
he realli did kinda much 4 mi ar.
being there 4 mi whenever im down.
pei u look mi up.
blah blah.
alot alot.
realli alot.
if i realli nt gonna celebrate 4 him.
im such a bad egg right?
but i still feel kinda weird.
ha.
sudden mood so no gd.
cos sudden think of ltr gt quanyan match.
n im nt going down.
argh!
im sad.
im sad.
i wrote...
12:29 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006;
nice outing yest.
im v v happy.
guess u 2 right?
smiles.=)
nt enuff time less 4 my study.
can say todae is the onli full dae i haf.
been v tiring.
sighs.
i wan earn big money!!
woohoo.
gonna mug.
=)
i wrote...
12:22 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006;
why am i so mei yong?
u dun wan mi.
bball dun wan mi.
everything dun wan mi.
why like tat?
why am i tearing?
i dun wan too.
but im jus too emotional.
i cant take all the hurts n pain anymore.
when then i can live happiness?
when then i can smiles?
when then can all sorrows be taken away?
i wrote...
2:04 PM
Thursday, August 03, 2006;
u r attached.
isnt it?
are u seriously happy with ur life nw?
why why?
i seems tat i cant understand u at all.
i cant.
i duno wad u r thinking.
i dunno wad u nid.
wad i do can forever be nth to u.
if u feel happy this way.
go ahead.
so many times tat i said tat i leave.
physically i did.but mentally i din.
why can u sense a thing?
forget it.
no more words.
u wun understand wad is inside my heart.
-09-
i wrote...
8:36 PM
attachment on 4 sept.
sianz.
kinda fears man.
hope it'll be a gd 1.
i realli dun wanna a dae without u.
if nt realli duno wad gonna happi to mi.
im sorry.
i wrote...
3:24 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006;
woohoo.
im here to declare that ..
im a pon tan queen!!
hahahha
cos i nv go sch agn.
too lazy to go.
nt like i gt sumthing to do at hm.
i dun haf.
but yet i dun feel like going sch.
whaha.
so i'll be onli going sch on thur.
oh ya.
i haven study 4 my test on thur.
whahaha.
yesh.
after soo soo long.
tml finally is the day.
every sec mean alot.
i'll rem this de.
guess i'll be dead tired tml.
i wrote...
3:22 PM