Monday, July 31, 2006;
woohoo.
naughty mi.
dun wan go sch tml.
so i gt 4 daez brk.
whaha.
onli go sch on thur.
n it will be my last lesson in my poly life alr.
yeah.
ahahha.
but i gt to jiayou 4 my exams.=)
i wrote...
10:27 PM
Saturday, July 29, 2006;
this few daez im thinking.
im thinkin wil ani one celebrate my bdae with mi?
i jus gt this feeling tat i will be a loner tis year.
sighs.
i hate my life.
i wrote...
11:08 PM
alright.
i wanna conclude that todae match was GREAT!
bcos 1st of all.
all along in cg.
i nv played such a exciting match b4.
i mean when the score r so near n im inside the court.
ha.=)
finally experience it.
onli 7 ppls turn up.
yups.
start of the game.
everybody play so well tat when coach dun haf confidence in us till he was like suddenly gt this *confidence* in us.
we lead quite alot.
then yups.
4 of our teammates gt 4 fouls alr.
the 1st to foul out was gh.
then left 6.
then last 5 mins,sandra foul out.
then yehs.of cos.my turn to be inside the court.
inside the court was mi,bird,xy,gwen n katek.
at tat time the score was less then 10 pts diff.
i v v nervous.
cos their morale up when they kip scoring.
then kip on jia us.
den less then 1 min.gwen foul out!!
then we play 4 aganinst 5.
haha.
stress.
in the end we won.
wad we most happy is that we haf a great teamwork todae.
n that all of us tot that we gonna lose the game.
cos was playing with lingyun.they all nt bad u noe.
gt those malaysia star also.
but i think we r better!
cos we won them!!
everyone was happy.
whahha.
next mon,wed,fri no sch.
whahaha.
n it's the last wk of sch.
woohoo.
soon i'll grad.
happy or sad?
i dunno.=x
i wrote...
12:04 AM
Thursday, July 27, 2006;
u r back n im glad.
so nice to hear ur voice.=)
miss u miss u.
stupid bro comment.
we dun care him ok.
cos we wen xin wu kiu can le.
whahaha.
no drifted apart!!
whahaha.
close close 4ever.
jus u n mi.=)
miss y y n miss pro forever.
tml presentation.
kinda stress cos it's in a lecture rm.
1st time man.
then next wk i'll be kinda relax le except thur.
whaha.
still tinking of going match tml ant.
abit dun feel like going.=x
mama say act im pretty.
jus that im big size.
whaha.
wad a gd comment.=x
i wrote...
10:34 PM
Wednesday, July 26, 2006;
went to see the doc jus nw.
yups.
n u noe wad.
even the doc asked mi to jian fei.
haha.
asked mi nt to drink animore gassi drink n fried food.
alright.
im gonna be ting hua.
NO MORE GASSI DRINK N FRIED FOOD(if possible)
why hasnt u been back?
argh!
wait til i gonna go crazy le.
=(
imu.
huaixiaohai realli change le.
disappointment.
i wrote...
8:51 PM
shit sia.
my belly button nv recover lor.
last 2 daez pain agn.
then tot nth de.
then tis morning damn pain then i realised it hasnt recover.
wad the fcuk la.!!
i dun wan thing to happen to mi!
yet i refused to go see doc or even go buy the washing lotion.
jus wad am i doing???
hais.
nvm.
jus pray hard tat nth wil happen to mi n i'll recover soon.
i wrote...
11:14 AM
Tuesday, July 25, 2006;
counting down.
im waiting 4 ur return.
-evil smiles-
im so excited.
i wan u.
*muacks*
gt back my last module result.
lucky.
i got a B-.
nv fail.
tot tat i'll fail de.
yehs.
next tues dun nid attend nite class.n no 4pm lesson.
mean i can go hm at 3+.
yesh.
n tis thur lab test being postponed to next thur.
so next thur i got sem test n lab test.
tml xtra lesson.
sianz.
make mi gonna go back sch agn.then i got to pia my reports alr.
next wk last wk of sch.=)
but exams cuming.=(
common tests n exams time table out.
10 aug-->com skill paper.
11 aug--> Eg3256 n 3267.
22 aug-->Eg3266
23 aug-->Eg3229
wao lao.
i still tot of going out celebrate on national dae de le.
n the next dae i gt paper.
hw can i go out?
=(
i nid money pls.
i wrote...
10:50 PM
jus wad happening to mi agn?
i pon sch again.
i realli duno pon hw many times alr la.
countless can.
always dun feel like going sch.
i dunno y.=(
ppls sch 4 12 hrs.
i sch 4 onli 5 hrs i guess.
cos i onli go 4 the last lecture n nite class.
freaking mi.
argh!
i always cant accept the fact tat u told mi.
it's so hard to accept n believe it.
it always wanna make mi go bang onto a wall n nv wake up.
why?
why r u always doing tis to mi?
u dun understand mi at all.
nt at all.
u dun even noe wad i wan.
all i wan is u.
understand?
but nvm.
since i gt to accept tat.
yups.
tat it.
u wan stay happy tis way.
then wish u happy always.
1 more dae.
do u miss mi??
im missing u everydae.
tat nite dream of u agn.
gosh.
tink i realli miss u too much.
cos mama say when u miss sumone too much.
u wil always dream of her.
yehs.
cant wait 4 u to be back.
but when u be back.
wil u be negelectin mi?
or bz with other things agn?
i jus wanna u to spend more time with mi.
cos i guess when my attachment cum.
i also duno gt much time ant.
sighs.
also dunno u'll read tis ant.
sianx.
jus freaking no life mi.
i wrote...
1:56 PM
Monday, July 24, 2006;
wow sianz.
i buang my presentation.
sianz lar.
damn scared i fail lor.
abit affected ar.
but suan le la.
cos i realli din do much.
yehs.
match ltr.
imu.
but days are closing.
n im waiting.
whhaa.
i wrote...
4:07 PM
Sunday, July 23, 2006;
so tired after work.
then reach hm to found out tat my big bro fall sick.
n it's like so badly.
he alone at hm.
then i tried to tc of him lor.
tink tis is the 1st time i took care of him.
then maybe tml b4 my presentation bring him to doc.
cos he no strength.
mean i gt to wake up early!!
nw pia 4 my presentation 4 tml.
hais.
bz wk.
im so tired.
y u so cold towards mi???
i wrote...
11:31 PM
Saturday, July 22, 2006;
im so proud of myself todae at work.
cos i alone guan 1/3 of the whole sportslink the whole dae!!
n wad best.
it's on a sat.
find myself pro tat i can managed.
no choice.
too little ppls work le.
but then.
im so so tired nw can!!
eyes closing.
miss pro.
i dream of u yest agn.
haha.
since u were away.
i duno hw many times i've dream of u alr.
imu.=(
super no life man.
next wk schedule.
mon-->presentation.make up class.match.
tues-->sch hol dae.date due 4 my assembly proj.
wed-->finally a dae off.(whee.u r back)
thur-->lab test(dead)
fri-->presentation.date due my another proj(assembly) n report.match
sat-->work.
sun-->work.
freak freak freak.
im so stress.
then soon.
exams cuming.
argh!!
can say.
i left 2 wks of sch n i dun nid to study le !!
i wrote...
10:51 PM
Friday, July 21, 2006;
good exercising todae.
haha.
cos we play 3 hrs plus straight without a brk or wad cos we keep winning.
lols.
i stop at 8+ cos when i lay up sudden cramp.
sad lar.
it's the time when i gt to take a rest.
haha.
bird mi katek n peanut.
we are the champion.
whaha.=)
i love basketball.=p
tml n sun working.
sad sad.
cant play bball.
i like the time when i play bball.
cos then i wun think so mucn n i also wun feel like eating.
whahaa.
have been missing u.
ni hai hao ma?
have fun over there?
i guess u did right?
u rawkz my world.
i wrote...
10:53 PM
Thursday, July 20, 2006;
went to gym.
but the session was sux.
cos i gt no mood to do anithing.
waste money onli.
then went centre to buy shampoo.
cos the smell wil remind mi of jie.
then went to eat.
alright.
2 dae withdraw money twice.
fcuk.
im dead.
no more next time pls.
jie.
i miss u.
realli miss u too much.
i dunno y.
r u missing mi right nw?
i wrote...
10:26 PM
i dunno why.
when u r not ard.
ni de wei da yi zhi wei rao zhe wo.
then i realised.
yest i used the shampoo frm my friens.
i guess is the 1 u haf been using.
thus i got ur wei da with mi all day long.
wo bu ting hua.
u ask mi nt to pon yet i still pon.
sorry.
but i realli dun feel like gg sch.
feelin so tired everydae.
whaha.
feel like go gym everydae.
dunno y.
cos maybe like tat i'll feel better.
i wrote...
12:50 PM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006;
y cant things stop happening?
y is it tat there is always sumthin happening tat is making mi fan n worried?
so fcuk up.
wad can i do?
i realli duno.
feeling so helpless.
n i got to 1 to turn to.
argh!
loner.
bottling so many tings inside.
feeling so fan!
but whu is there to help mi?
imu miss pro.
cos i realised tat u r the onli 1 tat i can turn to.
n u r the onli one tat wil make mi smiles.
i wrote...
10:13 PM
there u go.
byebye.
take care.
dunno y.
i suddenly miss u alot.
maybe cos.
i noe tat u r far away ba.
so long tat i nid to wait.
hao xiang ni.=(
gym jus nw.
felt glad.
cos i ran 3km.
hapi.
jiayou.=)
n im being nice.
bought socks 4 my bro.
spendin too much.
i realli nid to save.
cos nt much time left.
presentation.tests.examing cuming soon.
startin next wk.
gosh.
then soon it'll be proj n attachment.=(
i wrote...
5:23 PM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006;
too disappointed with myself.
but i realli jus cant control.
mum said tat i nw like tat also gd.
so tat no guys wil wan mi.
then i wun be hurt.
cos there r not much gd guys out there.
then i can earn n yang myself.
lols.
tinking abt it.
wil i be single 4ever?
tml u flying off le.
so long then u wil be back.
i miss u lots do u noe tat?
hasnt been seeing u much nowadaez.
n nw i tink i gt to wait 2 wks ltr then can see u le.
though u r bz.
but i still love u lots ar.
u wil nv be replace de.
do hope tat u'll enjoy.
i noe u'll.
but make sure u take care of urself k.
most likely u wun get to see tis.
but i still wanna blog.
hope u can kan shou dao.
imu.ilu.
takeare. =)
i'll promise to take care of myself de.
left out in the dark.
wil u rem mi?
i wrote...
11:24 PM
Monday, July 17, 2006;
im tired.
im realli sick of trying.
i wrote...
10:44 PM
17 of july.
it's such an impt day to mi.
a dae tat i wun forget.
a dae tat wil remain in my heart 4ever.
is tis the best dae to u too?
u once told mi tat 17 of july is ur most happiest dae.
is it stil the same 4 nw?
i hope so.
missing u badly.=)
hui lai hao ma?
take care ya.
i wrote...
1:49 PM
Saturday, July 15, 2006;
arching badly.
hurting badly.
i hide my tears.
do u noe tat im crying?
i feel so pain.
deep cut right into my heart.
u wun understand.
how much pain i haf.
-silly gal-
i wrote...
1:56 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006;
im v scared!!
im full of fears.
the infection jus wun go away.
causing mi to loss more blood,leavin more scars n causing so much pain!
wo zhen de hen ba.
pls pls go away.
y like so many tings on mi?
belly button.infection.cough.blah blah.
pray hard tat it nt serious.
is it cos i realli din take care of myself.
or wad?
i dun wan suffered animore le.
the pain hurt!!
the blood jus wun stop flowing.
argh!!
cries.
wo hao xin ku wor.=~(
i wrote...
6:06 PM
love u love u yes i love u!!!
i onli love u.!!
ni ting dao ma???
i wrote...
2:28 PM
zui ai ni de ren shi wo.
ni zhe me she de wo nan guo?
crazy bcos of u.
loner.
i wrote...
1:39 PM
can u tel mi wad can i do?
it's hurting.
misses u so much everydae.
wanted ur msges so much everydae.
wanted to c u everydae.
wanted to hear ur voice everydae.
but wad i get is always nth.
tearing.
qing ni gao shu wo yao zhe me zhuo hao ma? =(
i wrote...
1:31 PM
Tuesday, July 11, 2006;
y am i hurting everyone ard mi?
im sorry everyone.
but i jus cant control.
dui bu qui da jia.
i wrote...
1:43 PM
Monday, July 10, 2006;
i wrote...
10:37 PM
Friday, July 07, 2006;
broken pieces tat couldnt be mend.
wo huo bu hui gan dong dao ni?
i wrote...
4:19 PM
Thursday, July 06, 2006;
isit if im realli end up in hosp.
then u wil take care n be there 4 mi?
im nt impt animore.
i wrote...
10:17 PM
bad todae todae.
woke up intend go sch.
then after i wash up.
it suddenly rain v heavily.
so i decided nt to go sch n went back to slp.
then at alr 9.
saw a miss call frm friend.
then i called her back.
she say we gt PRESENTATION!!!!!
if nv go no marks.(40m)
then i pia to see without even combing my hair.
then reach sch at 915 when sch start at 8.
then i buang the whole presentation.
teacher scold mi.
said i nt prepared n stuffs.
argh!!
wadever.
spoilt my mood hol dae.
1st ICA tat i did DAMN badly.
forget it.
my stomach hurt mi.
my belly button hurt mi.
my studies hurt mi.
u hurt mi.
nono.
u din hurt mi.
is i create hurt frm u tat den hurt myself.
u r nt at fault at all.
im in pain!!!!!!
bu zhi dao wei she me.
wo hen xiang ni.
wo mei tian tou zai xiang ni.
wo jiu shi xiang he ni zai yi qi.
i jus cant stop my sillyness.
i jus cant stop myself frm loving u.
although i noe i wil hurt alot ppls.
i will disappoint alot ppls.
but then wad i wan is to jus be with u.
why?
wad happening?
but i noe im living in my own world.
cos u r sumone whu is attached le.
why am i still tinking of u?
why am i still holding on to hope?
hey ppls,can u see hw silly i am?
clighin onto sumone hu is attached!
i seriously duno wad im doing.
i feel like dying.
cos i wan u so much.
i jus feel like brainwashing myself.
so tat i can start my life all over agn.
but i noe.
i cant.
cos i'll still be thinking of u.
im seriously crazy.
loving sumone is tong ku.
i swear.
yes.
i was such a fool.
to ever let go of u.
knock mi down pls.=(
i wrote...
5:03 PM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006;
it's so horrible.terrible n vegetable lar.
im
so
so
disappointed
with
myself.
failure.
i wrote...
1:27 PM
wei she me wo na me ai ni.
wo bu ba ni liu xia.
bu shi wo bu ba ni liu xia.
zi shi wo liu bu zhu ni.
ni shi zhong bu hui hui dao wo shen bian de.
wo ye bu zhi dao wei she me wo na me ai ni?
wei she me wo fang bu xia ni?
u say loving sumone is nth wrong.
ke shi.
ai yi ge ren er de bu dao ta de ai shi hen xinku de.
ni zhi dao ma?
ni yin gai zhi dao ba.
wo chen shou de tong ku.
wei shen me wo hui bian chen zhe yang.
chuang tou shi yo wei ni.
u r making mi crazy.
going cut hair nw.
boring day i haf staying at hm.=x
i wrote...
11:01 AM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006;
im alone.
im living in my own world.
no one else but mi alone.
im such a loner.
i wrote...
11:22 PM
r u avoiding mi?
or am i thinking too much?
i tink im nt thinking too much lor.
i dun wish to de.
i wan to forget u.
but i cant.
i realli cant.
u r all inside my mind.
im so fan lar.
hais.
sad tis feel daes.
i noe things happen long ago alr.
but then.
i jus she bu de u lor.
zhen de hen xiang ni.
hen xiang bao ni.
argh!!
i kept tink.
kept thinking of the past.
i kept thinking of u.
ur face.ur smiles.ur tears.
it all abt u.
every single songs with mi of u.=~(
so much things happening.
thing tat make mi sad.
thing tat make mi tink.
thing tat affect mi.
thing tat make mi fan.
thing tat hurt mi.
physically n emotionally.
took back 1 module.
got an A .=)
but the lab exercises i stil lack of 5 or 6.=(
no time left.
i wrote...
10:28 PM
Monday, July 03, 2006;
im being save frm drowning.
but now.
im drown again.
no one can save mi.
im drowing.
im dying.
alone deep in the sea.
u make mi moody the whole day.
jus a msg or a word can change my mood.
im nt happy.
nt happy todae.
cant seem to smiles at all.
u make mi lost myself.
u make mi out of control.
u make mi ren bu xiang ren.
gue bu xiang gue.
u make mi wanna be alone.
u make mi attitude everyone.
u make mi kip quiet the hol dae.
last few weeks im so happy.
im so like free of sadness.
but since todae.
i think im going back to my old self.
the silly n stubborn 1.
dunno wad to blog animore.
i also dunno wad im doing.
am i tinking too much agn?
wad wrong with mi?
fcuk!
14 more daez.
ni hai ji de ma?
im so sorry to the other 1.
din mean it.
but im realli nt in the mood.
dui bu qi.
-07-
i wrote...
10:26 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006;
i wish tat i would be the one to take away all the pain frm u.
bu xiang kan dao ni shang xin.
tired.
i wrote...
11:30 PM
Saturday, July 01, 2006;
i wrote...
8:37 PM