Sunday, May 28, 2006;
work todae.
i feel so tiring nw.
think gonna slp soon.
jus nw saw jiamin.taltal.jac.
jm n taltal working as promoter at level 1.
yehs.
so long din see them.
mama yest told mi got bungs working as promoter at level 1.
yuan lai is them sia.
lols.
haha.
so qiao.
im so so disappointed with myself.
y cant i kip wad i said to myself?
y am i making myself sad n disappointed agn n agn?
y am i always a loser?
sighs.
im realli sad.
if tis goes on.
tink im realli gonna kill myself le.=~(
tml gonna be guai n stay at hm.
gonna start on my proj wor.
n maybe do sum tutorials.
cos wk 7 le.
n i haven touch on anithing yet.
=(
i wrote...
11:05 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006;
im tired.
shoooo..
go away.
i wrote...
11:03 PM
Thursday, May 25, 2006;
cum to tink of it.
i rem.
i recalled.
1 dae last sept.
i went to sumone hse which is so far.
walking under such heavy rain jus to see tat person.
jus to make a glow in the dark star 4 tat person.
but all tis wasnt appreciated.
my efforts all waste.
though it may be forgetten.
but i stil rem it in my heart.
memories.
it may seems nth to u.
but it mean everyting to mi.
*tong hua*
arent u suppose to be my prince 4ever?
i still rem the moment when u use a towel to wipe 4 mi when im all wet.
nv wil i foget tat wonderful moment.
i wrote...
3:26 PM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006;
i still rem.
when i was young tat time.
i got a thinking.
whenever i tot of losing sumone.
if they r gonna be dead or wad.
i hope tat i can replace them.
so that i'll be the one that is dead n they wil still be alive.
i dunno y i gt such tinkin.
weida isnt it?
seriously dun understand why.
cos im so humji.
y im so nt scared of death tat time?
maybe im still young n i dunno much abt it.
i wrote...
10:37 PM
smoking look cool?
wad the..
cant stand.
i realli cant stand it animore.
freak.
there r so many tings 4 mi to worry recently.
worrying 4 my great grandma.
dunno wad gonna happen the next min.
then tis few daez worrying 4 my mum.
cos there sumthing inside her mouth.
duno hw to xplain la.
but she is in great pain.
n she stil refuse to see a doc.
im scared.
scared it's sumting serious.
hais.
my bro.my great grandma.my mum.my di n mei.
y everyone got to make mi worry?
im stress enuff in sch le.
im tired cos of work n sch le.
my freetime alr cut down alot le.
i wanna relax.
but it seems like there r so many tings troubling mi.
can anione take away all this trouble in mi?=(
n im so dunno wad im gonna do after i graduate.
mum wil disagree with my idea.
my idea of working retail.
studying so much n work retail 4 wad?
but then i serious duno wad im gonna do.
sign on-->i scared i cmi.i gt no confidece in mi.
work to be a engineer??-->tat worst.in sch alr cant cope with all the work le.how m i going to b a engineer?
i realli dunno.
dunno wad i can do.
how my future wil be like.
wad gonna happen.
all i noe now is tat.
IM FEELING REALLI REALLI TIRED N STRESS!
maybe everything be peaceful pls.
i wrote...
10:12 PM
im back frm cycling!!
nw then i noe cycling is so damn tiring can.
wao kao.
duno hw much energy gone lar.
haha.
mit jie n bun at jubilee.
then we cycle to cg court de s11 to eat.
after tat we cycle to kovan.
walk walk le then we head to serangoon.
then hmm hmm.
on the way sumting happen la.
tat make my heart pain pain.
haha.=(
then sitted at jie void deck.
went to her hse.
then cycle to bun hse.
then frm bun hse then i cycle hm lor.
lols.
im so so tiring.
n my butt is so damn pain now.
haha.
all the up slopes r HELL can.
wao kao.
realli can die.
but tink cos we too long nv cycle le tat y like tat.
haha.
yesh.
tat my dae todae.
gonna rest well tonite.=p
my heart feel the pain 4 u.
seeing so much *****.
hope everything is ok le.
must take gd care ok.=)
nid mi i'll be there de.
dun nid mi i also wil be there de.
cos im always by ur side.
do be careful next time alright?? =)
u r strong my gal.=)
i wrote...
7:49 PM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006;
bought my bike!!
haha.
it black n yellow.
nice nice!!
happy happy.
but so many prob n make mi headach.
argh!!
nvm.
now ok alr.
haha.
thx daddy !! woohoo.
thx family 4 going with mi too.
=)
i noe that i can nv leave u.
cos without u.
dunno hw my life gonna be.
u jus make mi smiles.
each n everydae.
-hugs-
i wrote...
12:01 AM
Sunday, May 21, 2006;
fat.big.disgusting.
disappointed.
it's terrible n horrible.=x
i wrote...
11:32 PM
was toking to a colleage while walking hm.
we tok alot.
told him abt my stuffs.
how i think abt my future n stuffs.
haha.
bcos i nv except perfect.
i dun expect much.
he was saying.
*can u pls go n influence all the gals with ur thinking?*
haha.
lols.
but i told him.
thinkin can change de.
maybe few yrs time.
i wil change my thinkin right?
haha.
im feeling tired after a long dae of work.
haha.
n im sad.
cos the nike dunk my size left 1 pair onli.=(
next time if i realli haf the money n maybe wanna buy.
sure no more le.
sad sad.
14 more hrs n i can see u.
woohoo.
life is so great with u ard.
hehe.
*shy*
ilu.
i love my mama.papa.didis.meimei too.
muacks.
i wrote...
10:40 PM
Saturday, May 20, 2006;
tired tired tired.
work.
nt feeling tat well.
wanted to go hm bt wei le wan earn money.
i din.
n say a nike dunk.it's green n white with yellow tick.
damn nice.
wanted to buy but mama say waste money so i nv buy lor.
im gd gal.
but feeling sad la.
nvm nvm.
think positive.
think next time i gt alot alot money alr then go buy a nicer 1.
whahahha.
*dreaming agn*
tml work agn.
happy yet feeling tired.
nvm.
cos if wan a gd life.
must xinku abit.
haha.
=)
gdnite everyone.=)
gdnite my lovely jie.=x
im tired.
zzzzz.
i wrote...
10:57 PM
Friday, May 19, 2006;
i wan a laptop n i wanna change hp.
lols.
why the hell am i dreaming here?
i also dunno sia.
forever dreaming onli.
haha.
im pek chek with my desktop.
so damn idoitic.
y am i such a computer idiot?
argh!!!
hating myself.
lol.
nvm.
nw.
i jus wan to earn alot alot money.
cos i wanna buy alot alot of things.
n 4 the future.
cos i think.i wun be able to find a high pay job with mi tis type of standard.
=(
projs projs projs.
tests tests tests.
it all driving mi crazy.
i wanna quit.
i wrote...
7:51 PM
Thursday, May 18, 2006;
the relationship in the show is like reality.
the bonding.
the feeling.
the care.
the love.
the concern.
the everything for each other.
jus williness to gif in n do anithing 4 one another.
jus like mi n u.
realli make mi think of u.
imu.
haf an early nite alright?
noe u r tired le.
wan an.=)
i wrote...
11:15 PM
Im feeling so tired again.
feeling so slpy.
guess im realli lack of slp.
since i start sch?or even b4 tat.
i've been slping lesser n lesser.
realli like a panda nw le.=(
mama saw my 2 friends with make-up and noe hw to dress up.
she asked them y nv teach mi hw to make up.
complain tat i nt like gal.
i dun make up.
haha.
then on my way back.
i was thinking agn.
sld i realli start dressing up like hw the rest do?
sld i change n bcum 100% gal?
i think i sld.
she'll be happy.
but then i think i duno hw to change myself.
haha.
maybe sliming down is alr a gd thing.
haha.
yeps.
im tryin tryin.
trying hard.=)
how wil 1 see myself in a yr time?5 yrs?10 yrs?
still single or married?
haha.
onli god noe.
haha.
i realli thinking n wantin to work nw rather then studies.
duno le.
realli dun feel like studying.
feeling so stress.
so much things to do.
hais.
be like jie they all like tat.
work bu jiu hao ma?
weird thinkin i noe.
but lols.
i jus hate studying.
haha.
haven do anithing 4 my sementral proj.
when time is lacking.
cos i realli duno wad to do.
haven do my tutorials at all when everyone is at tutorial 3 alr.
i jus dun understand at all.
tests cuming soon.
wad sld i do?
i jus cant get myself down to study.
=(
but i wanna pass my tests n exams n het my diploma.
*pray*
i wrote...
6:37 PM
after so long.
i finally haf the time to blog.
haha.
haf been busy doing my PPT and swimming.
oh ya.
n plus spending ime with my jie.
haha.
tues nite pon 3 hrs of nite class go find jie.
then go her hse ton.
we watch movie.
haha.
she say wad the show is love de.
then we watch so long.
then realised is sistership.
aha
true la.
love show.*sister love*
haha.
then the show nice.
the feeling of us watchin movie together is damn shuang.
aha
so long dun haf the feeling le.
then wed stay at jie hse.
then we do sumthing
*secret*
haha.
then went tpy mit diana make my spect n go swimming.
then mit jie go library agn.
then wooho.
pia hm 4 my presentation.
cos i gt so much undone.
tis morning gt the interview things.
wear formal.
so mafan.
then jus a min ago i jus finish presenting another module.
haha.
kinda quarrel with friend b4 presentation de.
but heng things turn out right.
n nw im blogging!!
ltr going collect my spect.
haf to take train all the way to tpy.=(
thinkin wan go wait 4 mum finish work ant.
haha.
imu imu imu imu imu imu imu.
nw u noe hw much i miss u le.
hehe.
im missing u everydae.
yong yuan bu fen li.=)
i wrote...
2:10 PM
Monday, May 15, 2006;
sick.=(
but still.
i went swimming todae.
feel like dying la.
felt kinda xinku.
but then i stil kind of endure 4 1.5 hrs.
haha.
the lap seems long.
yeps.
i *highlight* my hair.
the result turns out to be cool n nice.
but it v red.
i predit i'll get caught by teacher?
lols.
suan le.
kana caught then see hw ba.
haha.
wad worst is thur i gt a presentation n an interview.
lols.
deep shit man.
tml got sch frm 9am to 930pm agn.
but think im nt going 4 the 1st 2 lesson?
too tired alr.
sighs.
i wan get out of sch!!!!!
im missin u so much do u noe tat?
so long 4 us to see each other.
alright.
4 u may nt be long but 4 mi is v long alr.
kinda sad lar.
but noe u wil find mi unreasonable if im sad cos of tis.
yehs.
nvm.
like wad u say.
jus a sec also means alot.
i hope u do.
cos it cfm mean alot to mi.=)
i wrote...
10:48 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006;
Shit.
im dead.
im realli realli dead.
can sumone knock mi down?
for jus 1 mths is enuff.
argh!!!
sad sad sad.!
how???????
-cries-
wo bu yao zhe ge yang zhi.=(
no empty promises to myself alr.
cos i;ve alr disappoint myself too many times liao.
im useless.=(
i wrote...
11:04 PM
Saturday, May 13, 2006;
freaking no mood nw.
why?
i dunno too.
freak.
forget it.
1st time bought a nike sport bra.
ya.
scolded by my mum cos it v ex.
nvm.
shall be the onli time i buy it.
no more spendin of money.
i totally agreed with yun.
blog is sumthing 4 us to tok to.
cos when u find no1 to tok to.
u can tok to the blog.
u can blog everything out.
ur sadness.happiness.everything.
i love blog.
cos it the one that nv reject listening to my prob.
i noe im weird.
so?
accept mi if u wan.
if nt then go away.
fuck.
i wrote...
10:50 PM
Thursday, May 11, 2006;
A GREAT DISAPPOINTMENT WITH MYSELF.
disappointed those whu look up on mi.
im nt fit to be a bballer.
quit.
tears jus kip falling down.
non-stop.
it couldn't be stop.
can u help to dry my tears?
i dun wan tears animore.
bt i noe it all impossible.
i dun wanna to tink.
but i cant help it.
cos.
i tot i could do better.
nv nt onli i cant.
it shows to myself tat im a failure.
forever failure.
i wrote...
10:17 PM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006;
woohoo.
yest too tired that y nv blog.
yehs.
it seems long since i last mop the floor.
haha.
n toae no sch.
help mama with it.
jus finish eating also.
n now im here blogging.
have yet to study.
have yet to do my power point slide 4 next wk presentation.
hais.
i nid more time man.
ltr going out with jie n ah bun
hehe.
happy.
im realli feeling so tired everydae.
tml nafa.
also duno can do well ant.
with my legs n hands nw aching.
dun feel like going.
i wrote...
12:57 PM
Monday, May 08, 2006;
im so dead tired nw can.
haha.
todae lesson frm 10-1pm.
then mit jie in my sch.
went to haf our lunch.
*feel so hungry during lesson alr*
then she go damn gong la.
i asked her to mit mi at blk S.
then she went to blk F.
then she claim tat is my fault cos i say F.
but i indeed say S lor.
lols.
nvm.
then after eat alr pei her go MS.
ya.
then she damn lar.
shop so long.
then onli bought a tee shirt.
alamak.
*pang*
then went back to her shop cos she starting work.
then she forget go SASA but wad she wanna buy.
so she asked mi go with her.
lols.
n im late miting diana la.
sighs.
then met up diana n went swimming.
haha.
the feeling is so damn great man.
been alot alot of yrs since i last swim.
haha.
n tis time round.
im realli DETERMINED to exercise.
haha.
tink maybe cos i've found myself a partner.
lols.
yeah.
but my hand n legs aching nw.
haha.
gonna rest v soon.
im spent most time exercising.
n it seem like i've neglected my studies.
haven touch on my projs n tutorials.
hais.
is so difficult to plan my schedule.=(
yest-->1.5 hrs in gym.
todae--> 1.5 hrs of swimming(14.5 laps)
thur-->nafa(die 4 sure)
fri-->swimming or jogging(depend)
i wrote...
10:09 PM
Sunday, May 07, 2006;
woohoo.
jus came back nt long.
intend to go joggin with diana at tpy stadium de.
then we reach there le.
stadium cannot use.
then we decided to go gym!
haha
in gym for 1.5 hrs.
until 745 then we went off.
nw muscle abit stiff.
haha.
n yeah.
tml going swimming.
i swear tat im gonna slim dowm man.
realli too fat liao.
yehs.
target for the month--> lose 5kg.
haha.
possible?
i try.
i tink i nid to plan my schedule alr.
too busy with everything.
haha.
=)
enjoy my dae exercising.
i wrote...
10:27 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006;
after so long.
i finally went back to work todae.
but dunno y.
i dun haf the working mood at all.
maybe cos.
all alone.
there is sumone tat motivate mi.
but now.
no more him = no mood to work.
haha.
cos no 1 play with mi ma.
but i shall nt complain so much.
gif mi work i also complain.
nv work also complain.
yehs.
but overall.
i still prefer work la.
cos can earn ma.
think i too long nv work le.
stand whole dae.
nw my feel so pain lor.
weak le.
yahz.
but think todae de time pass quite fast.
maybe cos i kip on thinkin tml dun nid work ba.
i also duno.
felt like a zombie at 1st.
but at 5+.
then ok le..quite jing shen lor.
yahz.
im feelin so tired.
realli realli tired.
but i noe tat i got alot of stuffs gt to do.
i nid to study in order to catch up.
i nid to do my projs.
i nid to do my tutorial.
i nid to work.
i nid to exercise at least twice a wk.
i nid to teach my bro eng.
i nid to mit my precious jie.---> the one tat i love most n lookin forward every wk.
hais.
i got so so much things to do man.
a collaege say im nue jiang ren.
make of iron de.
haha.
lols.
wad to do.
fears.
scared of losing.
do u understand hw i feel?
cries.
i wrote...
10:48 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006;
sianz.
no 1 toking to mi online sia.
i feel so bored.
must be coz it fri nite.
everyone went out to haf fun le.
then y im staying at hm?
feeling so lonely.
hais.
things happen agn.
sianz.
y cant everything be peaceful?
i wrote...
10:47 PM
sianz.
nw in friends do prob de lab.
my break bt finish eatining alr.
then cum here n rot.
feel sleepy agn.
sianz.
todae lesson til 5.
hais.
hope faster pass cos tired.=)
im waiting 4 every wed to cum.
whee!
i wrote...
12:44 PM
Thursday, May 04, 2006;
i swear that teaching kids study is tough man.
sighs.
teach my bro for 1 hrs plus.
i alr feel like giving up liao.
realli v xinku lar.
cos he duno anithing.
hais.
sighs.
nvm.
i shall be patience.
every 7 daez then we'll get to see each other.
or fast enuff.
is 3-4 daez.
dunno.
but im missing u everydae.
lol.
thx 4 being there always.
=)
i love u.
im feeling tired.
u r feeling tired.
lets feel tired together.
lols.
n pls do rem.
im always here ok? =p hugs hugs.
i wrote...
10:15 PM
fears.
wanna everything to be like hw it used to be now.
i wrote...
3:21 PM
sianz.
boring.
nw in sch having lesson.
todae lesson suppose to end at 4pm.
but wil end at 6 instead.
cos gt 2 hrs of extra lesson.=(
sleepy sleepy hua. *yawnz*
YES!!
AFTER READING UR BLOG.
I REALISED IS WE SEND U HM INSTEAD OF U SEND US HM.
NVM NVM.
U SHALL PU CHANG IT BACK.
NO WORRIES.
WE WIL LET U HAF UR CHANCE.
WOOHOO!=)
i wrote...
1:12 PM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006;
so sad 4 my small bro.
cos mama say he kip on kana punished 4 nt speaking eng in class.
teacher dun allow him play toys.
wad the fuck la!!!
he still so young onli.
n it's their responsible to teach him ok!!!!!
we pay them 4 wad de.
kaos.
instead of putting efforts in teaching my bro.
they punished him instead!
fook lor!!
im realli realli angry!!!!!!!!!
n mama say he no friends de.
hais.
realli v sad 4 him.
wondered cos all r childish..dunno..
children r like tis de or wad.
cannot blame la.
ppls ard our age.
sumtime also behave like tis le.
wad can we still say abt kids?
he so lonely.
wad if he go P1?
then wil be my mei le.
the process of growing up.
realli so xinku.
n we wil dang xin 4 them.
hais.
thus,i feel that there r much more jobs 4 mi to do nw le.
instead of studying hard to get a diploma.
instead of working.
i nw got to teach both my mei n di eng.
help then abit with their work.
cos i dun wanna see them suffer ltr on.
yehs.=)
happy todae.=)
enjoyed myself with the company of jie.
n ltr on with bun joining us.
yehs.
went to queenway.then tpy to get my di n mei books.
yehs.
i dunno y.
dun feel pain spending tat money at all.
maybe cos.
i think is worth it ba.
as long as it a way to help them.
yehs.
being the elder jie.
i got to take all the responsibility.
i wil try my veri best to help them de!=p
im realli determine to exercise at least once a wk le.
slowly increase.
n im also determine to help my siblings in their studies le.
must jiayou!
i wrote...
10:31 PM
Monday, May 01, 2006;
while watching the superband jus nw.
thoughts came in mi agn.
was thinking of going to join if next yr or wad if stil haf ya.
haha.
cos imagine u standing n performing on stage.
then below so many fans.
it wil be so cool lor.
haha.
n thinking of asking jie.liyana n diana go with mi.
woohoo.
dunno y.
jus think of them.
haha.
then watch the 9pm show.
the starting so romantic.
then make mi think agn.
wonder when then i can haf a bf tat bring mi happiness.
hais.
think everything wil be jus a dream.
n then im thinking.
wad i realli wan.
wad i wan to be.
looking at others achievin n stuffs.
when wil be my turn nehs?
aha.
but i noe.
everything come with the efforts put in.
no efforts=no gain.
haha.
jus like i put in efforts in our sistaship.
tat y nw we can maintain til like tis.
till no 1 can break us apart.
nw n forever.
-nid 2 hands to clap- =)
wad u wan.
as long as u wil be happy.
i wil try to do it 4 u.
=)
i wrote...
10:12 PM
haha.
yest too tired n lazy to blog.
so here i am to blog wad had happen yest.
mit liyana n diana aat j8 at 1.
went to party world n sing.
woohoo.
so damn fun can.
1st time with them.
hehe.
sing out loud!!
then we sing til 6.
then take cab down to sbc to watch finals.
it was so exciting lar.
yeahs.
then knew tat we gt trophy take.
but duno why.
all runaway.
dun wan take.
lols.
tis is the cg down.
sad lar.
aiya.
lazy to blog.
wait 4 mi to gt mood then blog ba.
i wrote...
2:19 PM
