Friday, December 30, 2005;
fetch jie frm sch.then headed to her house.intend to go bugis.she asked mi to wake her up at 7.but i din cos she slp til v shuang.dun wanna disture her.then at 7+ i went hm without letting her noe.now im still wondering.if she noe i go hm alr ant.haha.tired.dunno y i fetch her too.maybe im jus too bored.oh yeah.tml last dae of 2005.but then.got training.alright.hope i enjoy tml!!
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8:51 PM
a dae out with alia..liyana..pris n diana..oh wells.sec sch bball gathering..too bad we hasnt got shi hui to cum out.she is working..too bad lar..yeps.hang out at my house,k pool then bishan.im so happy lar.cos act nv play pool de cos i duno hw to play.-dun laugh-den after that they teach mi then i play.altot weird at 1st but after tt stil ok.n i got a ball in!!haha.so happy lor.yesh.then we went eat mac then headed bishan.walk ard.sit at coffee bean n waited for diana.then we went drink. n......ehem ehem..then jus came back at onli 12?haha.im kinda tired la.hehe.tell u all lor..think i went out with them more i wil more wan to dress like a gal lor.all so damn gal la esp diana.vein sia..oops.=/then liyana figure so damn nice lar.i wan lar.hehe.they realli influence mi man.n summore all ask mi haf long hair lo.they say totally difficult things frm my bball friends.they say i dun look bapo when i carry the gal gal bag.!!haha.lols.k lar..going zzz le..
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12:27 AM
Wednesday, December 28, 2005;
sighs.y do i seems like i haf no friends?i mean those that can go out with mi.wad i do..all i do is onli go out with my jie.realli wonder if 1 dae.if she is gone.how my life will be?i realli dunno.tried hard to find ppls to go out with mi.but all seems to be so buzy.hais.tis is my life.my fcuk up life.
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10:39 PM
im bored im bored.stayed hm the whole dae yest.n also todae.sianz man.but ltr got training lor.tis time round.i hope it doesnt rain.bcos IVP is realli getting nearer.n it like we hasnt been training much lor.we want to win.we want to bring back the glory.so we must jiayou.nyp.. we can de.jiayou everyone.sighs.my paper clash with match.paper end at 6 while match start at 715.dunno how man.yups.-imu-
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2:12 PM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005;
my mum must be damn happy.cos i bought so many gal gal clothes now.i have so many gal gal clothes now.im gonng dress more like a gal.i think she can fly.becos she so much wanting to see mi dress like 1.not onli her.but there is this sumone that wanna see mi dress like a gal too.haha.u noe whu can liao.but then.i think i nid times man.cos...im not kinda used to it.but i noe.one dae,i will de.hehe.time to slp.zzzzzzz =/
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4:23 PM
im back!went to chalet on sat nite.count down at jie house b4 that.went to her house on mon morning 4+ am.then slept till 2+ woke up then came hm.hehe.actually was kinda moody in the 1st place.but thanks jie.4 making efforts to cheer mi up.n seeing u really make mi smiles lor.dunno why.no matter how angry or sad i am.i see u.i'll smiles alr.haha.kinda enjoy myself at the chalet.not that bad.but this few daez gonna be loner again.haha.cries-nvm nvm.i must be independent.oh.when wil my one appear?when wil i get all the happiness?when wil be the dae that sumone will be there taking care of mi.when wil i be xing fu?i wan be happy.i wan to smiles always.i wan sumone to take care of mi.sighs sighs sighs.can the sumone faster appear??oh yesh.im straight im straight.dun suspect mi again.i wil tink n cant slp de.whahaha.onli sumone wil noe wad im toking abt.
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1:41 AM
Saturday, December 24, 2005;
online.but there is less then 5 ppls inside.read ppls blog.all seems to be out celebrating 4 christmas but im at hm.although going out ltr.but sighs.dunno.jus like all of the sudden.i felt so lonely.
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9:53 PM
Hohoho!
im here to wish everyone Merry Christmas n a Happy New Year!!
ltr going out le.
so happy and excited.
cos i can celebrated it with my jie!
i wanna enjoy my day!
i hope u too.
-hugs-
i wrote...
9:43 PM
Friday, December 23, 2005;
Finally I can take a break for 1 wk.hehe.looking forwards to the next 3 daes.i hope it enjoyable.dun wanna have a sad n boring 1.=p
i wrote...
11:12 PM
yeah!finally i finished all my papers!but the last 2 papers din realli study.onli like flid thru onli.hahathen yest went to work.it was so dun la.party after work.games.my grp gt champion!!but then i kinda*poison* my hand ma.din go and see doc.hope it wil be alright.but is pain and itchy lor.sighs.esp that stupid finger.n ya.i 1st time received so many christmas present le.haha.5 presents lo.haha.ya.tml going outside ton le.happy happy.cos it christmas!!i wanna enjoy .=p
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1:15 PM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005;
came back after 2 papers to cum back n slp.bcos yest loss of slp due to study.if i noe!i wun study til so xin ku la.dun nid to be so stress also.the paper was easy.sighs.alamak.but nvm.cos i told myself.at least i study le.i noe wad is going on.yups.2 down n 2 more to go.dun intend to study tml math le.cos ltr gg sumwhere.then fri presentation also.kinda worried la.cos like put in all the efforts in papers.n forgotten all abt the report.it's like so little in my report la.yehs.wonder how.jus hoping that everything wil go smoothly.
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3:44 PM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005;
crazy gal that run from serangoon to my house in jus 25 mins.haha.pro huh.pei fu pei fu.study time.
i wrote...
9:10 PM
yun^10noe u wun get u read this.but jus wanna ask u nt to think so much.cos u noe that we wil be there de.take care ya.so suay.lab test really kanna mi.sighs.knew that the teacher wil call mi.lucky the robot work.if nt.die le.cos the whole grp de result wil lie in my hand.haha.starting my papers tml.yet to prepare.onli study half of it 4 QC n nv touch at robertic at all.sighs.hope i can do ba.think tonite cant slp le.so sad lar.jie gonna run n cum find mi ltr.haha.so excited.oh wells.my angel has appeared.lols.=p
i wrote...
7:30 PM
Monday, December 19, 2005;
headach.
reports.tests.presentation.
im so packed.
packed with all this rubbish man.
cum to think of it.
parents paid so much 4 my sch fees.
i shld study hard.
and nt slack animore.
determination pls.
for both bball n studies.
i wrote...
10:31 PM
in sch now.having lesson til 6kinda headach now.sighs.maybe im realli too stress out and tired.training ltr.i wil be so damn tired lar.gonna do my report n study 4 my papers tonite.no 1 in my grp bother to do when tml is the deadline.wad the hell.im angry la!!and i've reali no time man.sighs.so many things to do within this 1 wk.i wan christsmas.i wan hols!i nid a break man!so that i can let my hair down.write till here ba.gonna go 4 lesson alr.-u r out of my mind--wanna love u no more--out u go--goodbye to u-
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4:50 PM
Sunday, December 18, 2005;
went to trainin yest morning but din train.cos was sick.and all of them so poor things.train under the hot sun.even cindy got to stand under the sun.then headed to work n then to sbc for match.sighs.cindy team lost to bao ling team by 4.most of them din played well.and can see that cindy was sad.waited for van to finish her prize presentation.cos going her house to take stuffs.she pei mi walk hm.went hm with 2 pairs of bball shoes.n a present.thx van n yun.and the present.whahaha.so damn cute n nice la.precious man.thx 4 all ur efforts wor.van is always the 1 that motivate mi.wad she done always do make mi wan to achieve.wan to do well in everything.wan to put in lots of efforts in it.thx lots.now gonna cope with all the tests.trainings n proj alr.sighs.this 1 wk.im so damn busy.
i gt no time.freak.i nid more time.
i wrote...
12:10 PM
Saturday, December 17, 2005;
im nv happy whenever i saw ur profile.
sighs.
nv happy seeing u with her.
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4:12 PM
Friday, December 16, 2005;
i realli hope we can do it.im hoping 4 miracle too.i wan to see everyone smiles.bringing the glory back to sch.i hope we do.jiayou.we noe we can de.*fever**4 papers n nid to hand in 2 report nxt wk**im seriously dead**can sumone help mi pls?*
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10:47 PM
sighs.fal sick.went hm halfway thru lessonfor a rest den came back 4 nite class.im having lesson nw yet so sick.tink tml going training but then wun be trainin.jus to see.then shld be headed to work after tt.n altot im sick.i stil wana go n watch match.sighs.i hate sickness.
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7:57 PM
Thursday, December 15, 2005;
wee wee.i gt my new wallet!!from the special sumone.oh wells.thx alot man.i love it lots.i like anithing n everything that u gave mi.hehe.my day was tired la.went to sch 4 lecture.headed to work after tt.went hm to change with the accompany of sumone nice.then went central to shop 4 g-string 4 sumone.bought her fav vcd.bought my mum fried banana.bought my food.take bus n went hm.watch tv.bath.then start to pia my proj that im suppose to hand in tml!n now after i've finish it.im so damn tired n slpy.and too bad cant pon tml!!cos gt to hand in proj ma.n i've been ponning 4 straight 2 wk.haha.start to be a gd gal.lots of papers next wk.must pia alr.aiya.always say nv do 1.haha.gdnite everyone.
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11:10 PM
Wednesday, December 14, 2005;
went to watch match yest.it was exciting 4 both matches.cindy was so cool & shuai.seen her in the match make mi melt 4 her once again.lols.sumhow feel that she is my coach is a veri rong xin thing.so maybe i shld treasure every of her trainings.jus like hw im when i was in sec sch.looking forwards 4 every training.haha.but now.realli kinda different.not onli that i nt lookin forwards.but indeed im full of fear.haha.they won bao ling team.then followed by cg vs hm u.despite mi shouting like hell.we still lost.but it alright.think they tried their best.yups.n later on.gonna haf nyp training.hope i can make it.i wan back all my confidence.n of cos determination.jiayou.actually was hoping 4 miracle to cum by 1 dae.but now.i think forget all abt it.
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4:06 PM
Tuesday, December 13, 2005;
Grp A:RPSMUMUSITEGrp B:NYPSPNPNTUthis is wad i heard frm others la.jiayou NYP!we can do it de!
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11:44 AM
Monday, December 12, 2005;
suddenly,i've so much to worry.scared no job.then i gt to eat grass alr.tml gonna hand in report yet my grp haven even touch it.next week got alot tests yet i haven even study.next fri gonna hand in report n do a short presentation on our proj but we also haven touch yet?then like so many trainings.like i gt no time at all.dun haf so much time to complete everything.alamak.if tis goes on.im gonna die.now like tt liao.next yr hw?think i can jump down frm building alr.sighs.
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11:09 PM
Saturday, December 10, 2005;
last time,i too chong dong n throw sumthing away.n now.when i wan it back.i couldnt find it back animore.-treasure wad u haf--if not u will regret jus like mi-
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9:38 PM
Friday, December 09, 2005;
wanna find a file to file sum papers.then saw this file that make all the memories cum back again.the file that contain all the things that u haf wrote to mi.to tell mi how much i mean to u n how much u love mi.to let mi noe that how deeply we r in love before.to let mi feel regret letting u go.to hate myself 4 nt holding u.n nv let u noe hw much u exactly mean to mi.how tightly i wanna hold u.read the blog.those letters.thinking of u.everythin jus came back.i noe everything is jus too late.i noe i cant do anithin.i can speak no more.do no more.those song.wo ke yi ren shou.forever love.chu zi zhi wai.chi xin jue dui.dong jie.all jus remind of u.esp the song wo ke yi ren shou.i listen to it everydae.n u appeared in my mind everydae.i wanna sms u everytime.but telling myself no point cos u belong to sumone else alr.i wanna haf u back.but i cant.i realli cant.bcos u haf changed.changing into sumone whu i dunno.dun understand at all alr.sighs.wanna say no more.cos i haf so so much to say.
i wrote...
10:37 PM
haha.ponn my lesson yest.then went to work instead.had fun yest during work.all bcos of her la.so so irritating.but it was fun though.i was happy.then at nite pia 1 of the report til almost 1am then go to slp.haha.lucky todae sch start late.but gonna til late also.930pm.lols.n tml gonna wake up so damn early 4 training.sighs.fear again.everytime got training.sure gt the fear in mi.then cant slp de.sighs.-take care of urself la--dun overwork k--see u xinku i also xinku--must haf a gd rest--im always there-
i wrote...
12:22 PM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005;
training was tiring.sighs.i still dun haf the confident in it.im so so demoralised la.sighs.tml work.im so busy with everything.work.sch n trainings.n i haf so many projs.yet to do.n wk 7 i gt so many papers.tests.hw am i going to cope?i realli duno.realli must pia everything alr.sighs.jiayou.endure.i hope i can.
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11:09 PM
Tuesday, December 06, 2005;
dun feel like doing anithing.jus wanna play n see u everydae.but then i noe it all impossible.cos everyone must work hard in order to achieve sumthing.i always wanted to work hard.but i nv get it done.all i do is waited each dae to pass.one dae after another.time flies.i realli nid to get things done.i realli do.
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7:29 PM
Monday, December 05, 2005;
another boring dae.pon lessons again.realli dead man.i realli pon alot alot lessons alr.haha.but who cares.lols.afraid.afraid of trainings.how i wish faster jan.or even feb.then everything wil be over.but of cos.i wanna enjoy christmas 1st.the christmas that we haf plan.hehe.omg.hasnt been having my determination.lols.so.is mi whu wil suffer.lols.nvm.we haf each other.oh wells.missing u by my side.do take care without mi ard.
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10:18 PM
Saturday, December 03, 2005;
im the weakest.getting worst n worst.0% of confidence.make mi feel bad.realli bad.i dun like that feeling.training.work n headed hm.wad a lousy sat i haf.i dun wanna haf a lousy sun.
i wrote...
10:33 PM
Friday, December 02, 2005;
boring weekend i gonna haf.
sighs.
hope not.
i wan alot alot money.
i wan mp3.
i wan pants.
i wan wallet.
i wan shirts.
i wan new bball shoe.
sighs.
i wan alot alot of things.
i wrote...
3:09 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2005;
gt a math test todae.stil scared that i'll fail despite open bk.went straight to work after lesson.then jie nt feeling well.see her in pain xin v tong.haha.then as usual.took bus wif her.headed to cg training.mit xy at centre.then tot nv train cos v little ppls.but then we train.start running n stuffs.run more n more fast.till i feel the pain in my stomach.n my hand so suan lor.then played 5 on 5 half court.then nt tt pain le.it was realli fun.i enjoyed it!wanna play it agin n again.haha.but too bad light off le.headed hm.n now.gonna go into my dreamland alr.v v tired.yehs.-i shall speak no more--cos it wil remind u again n again--imu--do take care when im nt ard-
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11:31 PM