Tuesday, April 26, 2005;
guy with spark hair n whu r short r bung huh??hahahahahawhen i think of tti laugh till siao.n i bugis bai chi huh?lols.yest night was reali funended meeting heraltot is jus a fw hrsi waited for 1 hr n 15 minsn we do nth muchbut i haf so much funhathx yaim touchbut u shld be touch moreaniwaygonna start work todae again le wor.till sat then can offhaha
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10:15 AM
Monday, April 25, 2005;
im so excited in meeting u tonite.until i got ur call.n listen to wad u gt to say.i hang up.pretending nth.but in actual.i felt so empty.i sian half.but i gt no choice.bcos wei le ni hao.i haf to respect ur desicion.think i gt 2 wait 4 another4 daes then i can c u.wanted to msg to tel u but i din.cos i noe u wil jus say sorry.n i dun wan u to feel bad.so it ok.i guess im alright.
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2:38 PM
Sunday, April 24, 2005; 1st match.
went to work for onli 2 hrs then went hm.cos i was reali veri sick.since yest 4am.wanted to call alvin to tel him im sick.but was thinking tt duno there wil be enuff ppls to work ant.so i went to work lor.but realli cant take it lar.so went hm at 1pm.then went hm to rest.to take a nap.then went to meet ju at bugis n headed to their match.motive of going down is to support them cos it the onli match i can watch.n also to pei my bf lor.yups.no matter hw sick i am.i stil wil be right there 4 my bf ya .tml nt working.veri hapi.but it onli a dae.after tt..going back to work again.n til sat then i can take off.sighs.tired lar.seein them on court make mi sad.i duno.jus sad alright.u all wun understand hw i feel.
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10:40 PM
Saturday, April 23, 2005; the dae off.
went dating went my bf.wass happy.but was sad at the point of sumtime.cos seeing them train 4 lan zhong make mi so sad.i was sitting there.stoning.msgin janice.tell her all my feelin.i almost cried.nt bcos of tt.bt bcos of yishun stuffs.but after tt was alright.cos huishan cheer n entertain mi.this is the 1st time she do all this.then bcos of cheering mi up.she say she be the bung todae.ha.so gd.todae gt bf help mi carry shoe bag all dae n gt a bung to cheer mi up ya.yeah.sianz ..tml gt work again.eh.jus wanna tell my bf.i wil always be there 4 u.may we be so sweet 4ever.thx 4 the kiss.it veri sweet.lols.n dun be sad k.cheer up k.cos u gt mi.to love u n to teng u.4 the rest of my life.btw.chong ghee 1st game lan zhong tml.jiayou chong ghee!!i may nt be there.but my soul wil be.chong ghee.dun make mi give up alright.cos i dun wan to.
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11:35 PM
Friday, April 22, 2005;
finalli i can take a day off!!haha..so happy!!yeah..but tml sure pass veri fast one.always like tt 1..when work.the time so slow.then when u play n haf fun.then the time passed so fast like nobody business.like todae.sighs.the time slow till..make mi damn no mood to work lor.haha..veri happy.tml go dating with my *bf*.haha.after so long.we finally together.hahahahaha!!why love is always so damn bloody complicated.it like sum1 like u but u dun like tt person.n u like sum1 else.tt sum1 else dun like u.sighs.wad is all this man?jus now was asking myself.y cant one give in to make the other happy?and make both of them happily together.?i sumtime reali dun understand.reali dun understand love at all.it's so complicated.but i noe.when u had reali found ur one.u'll be xing fu.but all this dun always last long.that why i told myself n wan to tel everyone.treasure wad u haf nw.if nt u wil live with regrets when sumthin or sumone is gone.that why im treasuring now.*hope i realli does treasure*lols.
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11:08 PM
woke up veri early.tok on the phone.online.den ltr going to work alrhappi.cos i can off tml le.can go out with u allcan see u allhappy happyi haf make a desicion.hope no regretit shock to noe all those n believe those thingsbut stillit the truthworking towards my dream nowyeahsim so excited.
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9:46 AM
Monday, April 18, 2005; Happy Birthdae to jie!
Happy Bdae to u.Happy bdae to u.Happy bdae to my precious jie.Happy bdae to u!Happy bdae to jie.1 year older le hor.lao liao lao liao..but think if u go buy beer.still wil kanna check IC..cos u look so xiao hai zhi!! haha..lols..felt so guilty n bad lar..cos i din pei u on ur dae.bcos im working.im sorry hor jie.but hope u enjoy ur dae lor k?my working schedule change le.actually this week off thur n sat right..now bcum i onli off sat.thur haf to work full also..then next week i off mon n sat.then the rest everydae fill also lor..sighs.i reali veri tired tired le.then mama say wad next month ask mi feed myself.ask papa dun give mi money.help them abit.sighs.like tt i veri sad le.but nvm lar.suan le.cos i noe they gt no money.i yang myself lor.haha.zhen de hao lei lor.damn bloody no life.can u imagine ur life with onli studies n work?now holidae work then sch reopen studies.sighs.i reali drifted frm everyone.maybe it's reali time 4 mi to change my life.a new life.learn to be independent n responsible like last time ba.yeah.nvm.I will work hard!!*wanna ask myself.haf i reali gt over u ?stil misses u at times.It all jus a crush*
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10:55 PM
Sunday, April 17, 2005; sianz.
listening to ge qian.cos this song make so mang ppls sad.then im gonna listen n understand the lyrics lor.yehs..now at jie house .ton lor.pei ehr.gt ju n bird also.think i wil be so tired alr.cos tml i working also lor.so sad..sure veri tired de..i gonna be panda n piggy now man..reaslised tt i grow very fat le.must jian fei liao lor..haha..but i stil go down with bird to the 7-11 to buy cup noodles..haha.lols..last time..frm tml le.then jian fei..hha..if nt ltr no 1 wan liao lar..haha..then todae act work til 4pm de..then alvin say wad no ppls...then ask mi work.i gt no chocie bt to help him lor.if nt like feel veri bad lor..yeps.todae damn bz wor.dunno y.think i commited too much in work tt i drifted so much away frm my friends.sighs.sad.but nvm..as wad i say ..a new life.a change in my life.
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12:21 AM
Thursday, April 14, 2005; sighs.
back hm frm work.mood nt gd now.bcos of my mum.i damn worried 4 her.pray tt everything wil be fine.schedule todae still next sunday:fri-11-930pmsat-11-4pmsun-11-930pmmon-11-930pmtues-11-930pmwed-11-930pmthur-offfri-11-930pmsat-offsun-11-930pm
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10:53 PM
Wednesday, April 13, 2005; long long man.
finished all my papers.but dun feel happy at all.no feeling.maybe is bcos of my 1st paper ba-EG1074.damn scared that i cant make it wor.yehs.pray hard 4 mi ya.yest night went to ton at the airport with janice.thru the whole journey.we were veri quiet.nth much to tok abt.duno y.went to burger king.ordered my stuffz 1st.bcos if i din order.the stubborn gal also wun order altot she is hungry.then i studied 4 a while onli.she read her bk.den stop studying.we listened to song.i keep on looking at her n smile.i duno y too.when she heard the song -ge qian- she bcum so quiet.i knew tt sumthin is nt right.but i din ask.i damn scared tt she cry.she kept quiet 4 veri long.then we start toking abt sumone.yehs.she wrote mi 2 lyrics.tong hua n chi xin jue dui.neat n tidy hardwriting.im gonna laminate it.haha.she fold sumthin 4 mi.i kept it in my wallet.4am.we headed to the viewing mall.see planes.sit down there.she was tired.but dun wan slp.she says tt i slp then she slp.therefore.gt no choice but to slp bcos i dun wan to c her tired.i lied down.she sit stil.say she slp while sitting.she always being so stubborn.duno y.but ended up lying down too.i noe tt she is cold.cos im cold with my jacket on.leave the place at ard 545am.waited 4 the stupid 53 for so long.but met 2 bungz on the bus.1 damn shuai 1 tt i tot is a guy till janice told mi she's wearing a skirt.aha..i so stupid.but seriously.she is damn shuai.janice wanted to send mi hm bt i din wan her 2.nt i dun wan.is bcos my house here gt no bus 4 her to go hm.dun wanna ma fan her.wei le her hao.she send mi to my bus stop.pei mi wait 4 bus.asked mi realli dun wanna her send mi back.yehs.she is realli so great.being so gentlement the whole night.thx janice.im realli realli happi altot we din tok much.thx 4 accompanying mi.looking at u is enuff.haha.lolx.went hm to slp after tt.then went 4 paper then to work.was kinda irritated.i jus merely kept quiet nia then my manager was like*why ur face so black?smiles can?*pls.i jus kept quiet.nt my face black.nt affected much by this.but by ah yeo.another senior at my workplace.sighs.dun wanna say le.dunno why.maybe too many daes nv work.suddenly the feeling nt right.like veri bu xi guan lor.hais.tml.fri n sun.working full.and mon.workil till 4.was wondering if mon i working ant.cos it my jie bdae.wanna pei her.see how.gonna slp.it far too long man.hope everything goes well.
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11:35 PM
Monday, April 11, 2005; 1 more paper to go.
finish my math paper alr.haha..quite happy with the paper la.can pass ba.but i think my 'A' fly off liao..haha.cos found out that i make sum careless mistakes.summore the ans i duno correct ant le.yeps.kinda forget when doing the paper jus now.i damn tired now lar..haha..1 more paper to go.hope i can do well too...hope like the math paper..can make mi happy.yeps.then veri fast..tml..wed..then no more paper liao..yeps.it's like been so long since i reali stay at hm..kept on going out recently lor...must stay at hm be gd gal laio.n of cos..must go back to my work liao..haha..sad or happy? i dunno..depends..tok lots of craps with janice thru sms..haha..but it's entertaining.*whenever i walk passed there.it remind mi of u n her*
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1:55 PM
aiyo..it's late alr.going 1am le lar..tml i gt math paper at 830am le..dunno can wake up ant..nvm..aniway..call ppls to give mi morning call le..in case i cant wake uo then die..eh..din realli study much lar..study abt at turf city then headed to jia house..then keep on slacking there..but im quite confident lar..unless the tips teacher gave is nt same to the exam ques la..then i think i'll kill the teacher man.haha..eh..mi n jie reali bo liao lar..slack so long..lols..jh went there at ard 8+ ba..then after tt followed by sista n airen..yeps..sista dun look too gd lar..hope she is alright..din ask her much bcos i noe jh is there 4 her.so i dun haf to worry.yeah..haha..then i reach hm at abt 1215am..1st time man.gt paper in the morning then stil go hm so late..then da dan right..haha..lols..going to slp le..if nt cant wake up then i die..yes..everyone..pls pray 4 mi n lee xianglin man..bless the both of us to be the lucky gal 4eva..haha..lols..-gd luck-
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12:43 AM
Saturday, April 09, 2005; sunburn
omg!my face kanna sun burn lar.haha..lols.cos went 4 match todae.ha.we out after 3 match.lose aljunied.the stupid refree damn bias lar..kaoz.then stay back to watch the aljunied VS malaysis match..the tailand gal tt played 4 aljunied damn gd lar..think everyone ai shan her man.then my malaysia no 7 veri shuai also..haha..den think ah jie veri disappointed la.cos i told her i wanna go her house de.ended up i din go..she veri sad lor.sighs.im sorry jie.oh ya..aljunied lose by 1.haha.vans played quite well ba..gt score le..haha..tml waking up early to go study at turf city again..then maye ard 4+ i wil go off ba..go ah jie house lor..to pei her + study..if nt.stay at turf city till night.yeps.think chong ghee lan zhong send 1 team nia..veri disappointed man..sighs..cant play..
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11:41 PM
Friday, April 08, 2005; 1st paper over.
EG1074 finally over le..!! but then..im nt happy at all.bcos..think i gonna flunk man..damn scared..at least 20 of the MCQ ques i anihow tick one lor.sighs.cos i gt no time..then no choice..veri scared la..scared that after moderate i still cant make it man..pls!! help mi pls..a pass is enuff..i dun wanna take sub paper man..-cry- 2 more papers to go..math n analoge..actually haf confident in analoge liao..no fear liao..but after my paper todae..the fear came back again..n my confident lose..sighs..hope everything wil be alright man..yeah..tml going to hougang 4 the aljunied kinda match..gt malaysia team..sure veri hao kan 1..yeah..heard frm my mama that there gt ge dai also..yeah..then see wad time i end the thingz.if still got time..intend go to jie house..yeah..then i can study there also..nt going training...i must realli try my best for the next 2 papers..n go on smoothly to year 2.*i told myself not to give up.bcos giving up mean i alr lose the game*
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10:28 PM
Wednesday, April 06, 2005; 1 more dae.
at ah jie house now..came here at noon..came to pei her and studying.bt then ended up..slacking ..now they playing manjong..gt bird..jinhui..cheryl and jie lor..then i playing computer + studying ..haha...sianz..no more time..1 dae left..hw sia..dunno anithing yet..think i this time rnd die le lor..sighs..dun blog alr..damn lazy.haha..
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5:22 PM
Tuesday, April 05, 2005; exams.
omg...my head pain pain now..wo hui bu hui kanna..?? haha.doubt so lar.cos i kanna b4 le.haha.aiya.todae went to turf city to study..end up slacking ,eating n shopping sia.haha..sad lar..nv study.felt so guilty..dunno wad to study..dunno hw to study...am i going to flunk in this module??i dun wan.i wan to pass de..yeps.so jiayou wor..exams exams exams..omg..im so stress n scared..1 week..n everything wil be alright.i wil be free provided i can do my papers...take care everyone.
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10:28 PM
Monday, April 04, 2005; examz..
few more daes to my examz.sighs.jiayou ok?tryin to study hard ..go go go..10 more daez n i'll be free..
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10:49 PM
Saturday, April 02, 2005;
jus came back frm training.training was fun todae altot veri little ppls.yups.say le act wanted to go study de.but nv.jie n cheryl rot at my house.ah jie bought mi so much food.haha.thx ya.if nt im so damn hungry lar.love u jie.haha.then yeps.training was tiring.but i like it.sweat all over.haha.yeps.thinking tml wan work full sian diao la.dun feel like going.whole dae le.veri tired 1.so think gonna get sum gd rest.haha.yeps.sista ar.take care n recover soon k.miss u.hugs.then eh eh.to another 1.i duno y u sad la k.but i dun wanna see u sad.i wil always be by ur side.tt wad we promise each other.yeps.cheer up alright.msg u tml.yeps.hugs.dun make mi worried abt u..take care.yes..all the papers cuming..no time left..jiayou.
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11:17 PM
reach hm at 8+ tis morning.went to airport to study.yeps.it's always so nice studying there.at 1st cant get down to study.then after tt.alright le.can study le.yups.study til abt 5 then take a nap 4 a while.but keep on waking up cos it wasnt comfortable to slp there.haha.yeps.then woke up at 12+ cos was toking to jie on phone.yups.waiting 4 her to cum my house.haha.then we going study again.OMG! everydae study study study.but nvm.no regret.lols.efforts will pay off.haha.then ltr gt training.hope dun rain lor cos if rain then no training le.then tml working full lor.im tired now.cos slp awhile nia.yeps.*im confused.unsure of myself .but i noe im not true*
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2:20 PM
Friday, April 01, 2005; finish my paper.
jus finish my paper.yups.hope can pass ba.sighs.teacher said tt for the common test.quite a no. of ppls failed.gt 2 persons get 30+ onli.i damn scared lar.scared tt 1 of them is mi.yups.going to take a nap ba.then ltr go bishan with mum 4 a while then night go airport lo.to study again till tml morning lor.yups.but this time rnd nt so bad lar.cos tml i nt working mar.so tml cum back can rest.yeps.all my tests finish le.now is time for my exams.yeps.*im out of control.totally*
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4:52 PM