Monday, February 28, 2005; injured everywhere..
stupid guys..played with us like playing with guys.cant u all see we r gals huh?lose liao then mus play rough 1 mehs?idoitic.whack us here n there.injured everyone.lucky we r powerful gals nehs.gt the strength to whack u all back..whahaha..u jus affect mi.
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4:16 PM
Sunday, February 27, 2005; the night is still young..
it 3.15am now..whaha.hasn't slp cos jus now was looking thru at all my friends pic in friendster with my parents.n they wil so shock seeing so many gals tt look like boi..haha..seein them kissing make them wanna vomit?whaha..mum asked papa..*wad if 1 dae u see ur daughter lying on bed huggin with a gal?* whahaha ..kaoz..mi again..freak..if tt true..i wil be dead! lols.and sista..mama say u dun look like bung lar..u veri chio..n papa say hao kan..whaha..so cannot tink too much le ar..also cannot sad when ppls say u *ah bung* ah..haha..hugss.going slp le lar..lols..1st time online till so late..whahhaa..yaya..btw..kanna whack yest at skcc by a guy..bleed man..kaoz..idoit..
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7:13 PM
spend my whole afternoon at hm..so boring la..nth 4 mi to do..can onli play com n slp..then the stupid friendster so laggin..then always gt error..cant go in..damn freakin angri..ltr gt chong ghee training..hope i do enjoy ba..but kinda scared of the weather..cos it dun look too gd now..sighs..u gave mi hopeand nowu make mi lose hopewhen i've settled everythinu make mi tink againu make mi dong xinu make mi miss ur msgu make mi happyu make mi wan to c uu make mi feel uneasy without msgin uu said u heart pain when u see i sadu said u heart pain when im injuredu asked mi to haf lots of rest when i dun haf enuff slpif nt my body wun be able to stand itu asked mi to study hard for my testsu asked mi to jiayou with uu always make mi take the initiativeu nv once take the initiativeu bluff mi lots of timei forgive u every single timeu always said sorry to mibut do u mean it?or tt is wad u act wan it in the 1st place?all ur love..care n concern..izzit real or onli tryin to lead mi on?u make mi veri tired..seriously tired..but thx to u.tt i noe wad i act wan nownt going to be a fool againstop flirting with miand go 4 the 1 tt u reali likeeverythin wil be normal once againain't going to hidei noe i gotta face ucos next semchances of us being together is hightt wad u told mii noe u r all along playin with mii played with u toobut sumhow.tings can get seriousmind can get wild yayeps.we wil be like wad we used to bethe 2 most style ones in our math lec rmwhahahawe rockz k!*take care..im worried abt u..*
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8:32 AM
Friday, February 25, 2005; finally a hapi dae..
todae quite happy.paper in the morning..i do it all myself n found out tt act everyone was copying 1 another..findin myself stupid ..lols..nvm..at least i can noe hw much i noe..lols..tok cock sia..erm erm..then went hm slp..nag by mun again..sighs..feeling so irritated man..went to meet sister n gh..then went hke play ball..ended up staying there whole dae coz amk raining..yups..then training cancelled.then played til veri hapi los..yeps..tml having semi-final le..nyp playing..jiayou k gals..noe u all can do it de..fight all the way..i sill support u all till the end too..hehe..*u let mi noe how wei da love is*
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3:24 PM
Thursday, February 24, 2005; my mum..
my mum once told mi..
we dream of sumone bcoz we misses them too much..
my mum find mi veri shi bai..
bcos my friend gt a boyfriend and i dun..
my mum wan mi get a job..
making mi damn ittitated..
i nid a rest..
cos im breaking down..
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9:39 AM
Wednesday, February 23, 2005; i nid a break.
argh!!!~i veri tired lar...for so so many daez..hasn't been slping well..if not..onli slept for fw hrs..sighs..then..i flunk my math paper man..damn angri..study so hard ..dunno hw to do..make all mi confident vanished..wasted all my efforts..and make mi headach for so many daez..yest night cant slp again..dunnno y..was so damn tired n wanted a gd slp but end up lying on bed listening to songs.mind jus cant stop running ! and mind added 1 more thing..making mi so damn confused.. why??~ when i wanted slp so much but i cal fal aslp..sighs..n u hasn't been replying mi msg hor..also have nt receive ur msg for alot alot days k..why?? tel mi why man..sighs..life is jus so boring and meaninless..=(ltr sp playing with nyp..it wil be a exciting match..sure alot ppls watch de..yups..altot i may be frm nyp..but jus wanna wish the sp team gd luck..play ya best ba..but dun injured urself ya everyone?? jia you wor..all the best !!maybe tonight nt going slp again ba..cos tml morning having paper..and till now..i haven study yet..summore ltr got match..i think i wil onli be back at 10+?? then start studying at 11?? sighs..i dunno..damn tired..i nid a bbreak..
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6:16 AM
Friday, February 18, 2005; boring dae..
bored Sia!!!! todae whole day stay at hm..almost die la..haha..so nth much..jus copy sum math stuffz n slp onli lo..yups..n of coz..online la..yeps..nw trying to continue coping again.coz gt alot..think i've miss out too much le la..mon paper le..think i die lo.sure die till veri jialat 1..but last fw daez i veri guai le..act wanna pon sch de..but in the end force myself to wake up n go..dunno y also..haha..maybe it my promise to sum1 ba..yahz! and yesh!! yest NYP gals won ITE combined.it sumthing that no1 wil believe?coz every1 was like...say ITE sure win de..no 1 give NYP confident at all..except ourselves..gd game gals..while 4 the guys..gd game too..altot u all lose by 2 pts..u all still played well..u all alr play ur veri best le..all of us can see..altough can say..it veri ka xi la..but nvm..try harder k..n see we gals so gd..cheer so loud..frm start of the game till the end..ever1 is losing their voice la..haha..lols..bt tt show our NYP team de jing shen.yesh! jiayou n cheer 4 each other.tml gals game again.hope u all does play well..NYP..Jiayou !! my heart wil always be there..
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1:17 PM
Monday, February 14, 2005; Happy Valentine Day to all !!
It valentine dae!! lols..gonna spend it alone again..it has always been like tt every year..since long i've blog coz wasn't at hm for many many dae!! spending alot daez at bird house..to pei lek..enjoy alot with her..hope she does enjoy too..she went back yest le..so sad..she sure gonna miss us..but it ok..at least we took pics together..4 memories ya..hehe..all the pics so nice..like it alot..hmm..now in library..waiting 4 sch bus to SP..coz NYP guys having their 1st match todae..playing against RP..yups..think wun be a difficult game 4 them ba..kinda bored la..haha..they watching salm dunk..siaoded de..yeps..saded that i cant see u later..haiz..but i realli does hope to see u..rem my friendster msg 4 u ya..stay happy always..cheey up..HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL! hope everyone enjoy themselves on this veri special day ! hao xiang ni.
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8:37 PM
Thursday, February 10, 2005; 1st day of CNY.
todae is 1st dae of CNY !! haha..aiya..nt excited at all lor..so boring 1..lolx..haha..erm..on sun n mon night..slept at gh house..haha..sun is onli mi then mon gt quite a no. of us.yeps..both daez i slept on sofa..then hor..tues morning wake up..my neck so pain.like sprain my neck like tt..haha..yepz.mon when mi n gh woke up.we played the stupid xiao ding dang game.so lame la.nv ending 1.in the end i kinda tired n sianz liao.then asked her go have our *breakfast*.haha..than after tt..we went hm then went to play bball..yeps..the ltr the 2 came..we play 4 on 4..veri fun lor..haha..we play for alot hrs wor..haha..then we go market buy veg n stuffz..ok..it time to cook dinner!! 4 of us..be chef on tt dae..whaha..so excited lor..we bought ard 25 bucks thingz ..then the food turn out to be..erm erm..can eat abit but cannot see..see liao dun feel like eating ..haha..then i eat onli a fw mouth onli lo.aha..think i go coffee shop eat better..onli myabe maggi enuff liao..nicer wor..whahaha..k la..dun say la..ltr the ither 3 bashed mi up..whaha..esp the one cooking the wu chang rou.ahah..ownself eat till next dae vomit.reali gt nth to say sia..haha..then erm erm..next morning went hm..slp..then evening go relative house eat..then after tt..headed to ah ma house to eat again..then at 9 + mum asked wanna go hm anot ..coz uncle sendin.then i duno y..wanna be enthu.dun wanna go hm..then asked uncle go buy beer..then asked every1 play cards..but thingz din turn out right la..haha..nvm la..stil have sum fun..yeps.then this morning went ah ma house bai nian then 2+ cum back liao lo..yeps..so bored..then say act wan study at night de but think tml then study ba..haha..wad i wan now is feel like eating mac..dunno y.haha..maybe too long nv eat..whaha..erm erm..then i veri qi dai this thur..coz outing !! whaha...i dun care ar..promise liao better dun break hor..haha..lolx..yeps..hehe..n to sista..stay happy always k..a new year..a new hope..thingz sure wil be better..both 4 u n mi..must put a smile on ur face always..like tt then wil be more chio ma..but without it..still as chio ..ur the best man..hehe..mus stuay hard k..erm erm..take care always la..and pls rem..i'll always be here 4 u..now n forever..aint going to leave.n ah jie ..!! whr my ang bao ?? whahha..u too take care la..dun neglect mi hor..wil always rem wad u say..appreciation do mt nid to be shown..always rem it in my heart..whenever think of u.i'll always rem this phrase..yeps..haha..i give u all my blessing..but of coz..wil still be there to protect u..n it sinercely protecting u..like wad i have do 4 the past 2 years..whaha..k la..rem our promises..dun pon sch !! n ur promises..hope u stil rem..i noe u wun forget de..yeps..hehe..k lar..till here..as usual..missuloveu..whaha.. n to everyone!!!!!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!! may all ur dreams cum true!! take care everyone !! jiayou wor..*CHong Ghee and NYP*
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1:09 PM
Saturday, February 05, 2005; the pain is killin mi
cant get to slp
bcoz the pain is killin mi
nv felt so painful b4
it gave mi the feeling tt im leaving
every parts of it it's so painful
tt make mi dun feel like moving
pls pls
can it faster go away
im realli in pain
cant take it animore
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5:31 PM
went to doc jus nw
cos i cant take the pain animore
it's driving mi crazy
have to take all those disgusted medication again
sure vomite everytime i take it
feelin scared..fear
coz doc said tt if this time round still nt ok
i nid to go see zhuan ke
which sound so scary
n zhuan ke is damn ex la
doc make mi more scary when he said tt
when u r prepare..cum to mi n i'll sent u there
when u r prepare??-->sound as if im going to die or wad
i dunno
hope this time round it'll be ok
go n nv cum back
the pain realli making mi crazy
y it mus be mi?
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12:56 PM
Thursday, February 03, 2005; everythin..
i'll nv be perfect
it came back
n nv go away
wil stay with mi 4 the rest of my life
wad it leave it onli scar
i dun wan
i hate it
y cant u jus go away?
why mus make mi in tis state?
is so damn pain
im tryin to ren shou
got tis feeling tt we going to part again
dunno
jus tis strong feeling
y cant thingz always be the same?
i dun wan
dun wan us to part
wan everyone to stay together
during tis period of time
misses u guys so much
but do u all noe?
i dun think so
jus wan the way it used to be
it has been 1wk n 3 daes since i last saw u
wanted to see u so much
wanted to sms u so much
wanted to hear ur voice so much
during tis 1 wk tt i din msg u
have my feelin gt deeper or started to fade?
i dunno
tryin hard to let go
wil i be sucessful?
u tel mi things
u explained things to mi
but sumtime
reali duno r u tellin mi the truth
r u lying?
ask urself truefully
dun hurt mi
dun wanna be hurt
xi wang ni shi zhen xin de dui dai wo
dun treat mi like an idoit
i trust u
dun let mi lose hope in u
i dun wish too
dun let mi noe tt the actual u is different frm the 1 im thinkin of
dun lie to mi
dun hurt mi
dun let cry cos of u
dun let mi sad cos of u
jus wan the way it used to be
jus wan it to stay as it is
study break next wk
exam on wk 10
scared
cos i duno a single thing
pon lessons
nv do tutorials
slp in lecs
lazy
slacker
hw to do wel like tt?
y i dun care abt my future at al?
can i jus buck up?
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3:50 PM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005; fake care?? concern??
no hp..no discman = no life..haiz..life so meaninless without both of this ya..pon too many lessons recently..haiz..then all my hw..i nv do..wait till the veri last min then i tried to do..like nw..trying to finish up my flowchart which ppls alr hand in last week.n ya..my infection is back..it getting worst i think..more n more..hope it wun be serious ba..if nt..i realli dunno wad to do..im scared..yahz..
didnt 1 2 pick a fight purposly..but ur nick realli make ppls piss..n it hurt ..maybe nt mi..but sumone else..n the reason is nt onli her..i din denined..but coz of another person too..dun wan her to take any more pain..dun wan her to go thru everything again..everyone care 4 u..n u asked us nt to act..hey..act 4 wad..fucking can..dun believe go ask ard..go ask gwen..hw mi n the rest worried..n yet u say dun make u luff..wadever la k..wad done is done..tink there's no way in turning back..n no reason too..jus making mi fuck off..
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11:43 AM