Saturday, January 29, 2005; bad dae..
nothing left..nothing..nothing at all..bag kanna stolen..lose all my stuffs..lose my hp..sumthin which is my life..without it..i cant contact anione..cant contact jie..cant contact her..feel so sad..so bad..i'll die without hp..my discman..sunthin which acc mi whn im dwn..when im walking to sch..now..no more le..my keys..entry to my house..my ezlink..sumthing tt allow mi to travel ard easily..my spects..which allow mi to see clearly..nw cant see clearly..dunno hw to study..cheryl uniform..jie jersey n clothes..n my t-shirt tt i wore it 1st time..my wallet..which contain all my stuffs n PRECIOUS photo..nw..everything gone..so fuck up..haiz..dun dare go hm coz of it..went to ju house..thx the both of u 4 acc mi..ended up we both nv go sch also..n think im gonna kanna love letter liao..think comfirm kanna liao..yeps..thx jie..4 taking care of mi n huggin mi when i nid u..thx 4 promising my mum to take care of mi n the t-shirt when im so cold..thx airen..4 caring mi 2..4 mi going to ur house..tryin to support mi 4 everything..givin mi wad i nided..yeps..thx gh..cheryl..haixin..noe everyone of u care..i noe i noe..thx..but sum ppls jus gave mi the feelin tt they dun care? i dunno..n im nt gonna to care at all..tryin to get a hp asap..hoping my dad wun scold mi tonight..hoping tt i wun kanna love letter..hope everything goes on fine..n ya..make a spects asap ya..wan to have alot alot money nw !!! so that i can have everything back !!!!!
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7:40 AM
Tuesday, January 25, 2005; jus so board..
kaoz..jus to finish a letter of inquiry..i do it since 730..to nw!! which is ard 930?alamak..jus a letter le..so long..exam how?rewrite it 3 times sia..lols..erm..dunno y..keep pn having those *blur* feeling..it like i do thingz..i'll felt veri blur..like dunno wad im doing those kinda feeling?? yeps..yest i so qiang wor..haha..slept at 12+..woke up at 2.58am.. then cant slp..coz was thinkin of sumone..then ard 5 then i slp?n i gt to wake up at 7 in the morning lo..sighs..yeps..erm..msg few of ur at tt time..haha..type quite long..feel so much to say so jus type lo..but..none of u reply other then meinu??lolx..den break time saw gf..then veri hapi lo..msg her ..she reply..said tt she think she'l be late 4 sch..haha..n say she cutting hair todae..wonder hw short will it be??haha..then at 6..msg her to ask whr she is.. :still in sch coz lesson jus ended..haha i forget..then jus..msg her again ..but this time round..she haven reply..wonder she will reply ant..haha..lolx..yest type a veri veri long msg in friendster to her..but i dunno izzit sucuessfully sent to her ant..i din save..so if nv sent..i'll b so sad man..ehhhh..she reply le..she said she din cut hair..n she read the msg alr..haha..then tt gd..erm...tml..going to pon my last 2 lessons..lec n tutorial.hope wun kanna *Love letter* coz havin a friendly game..yeps..hope i'll enjoy it..actually..veri much wanted her to be there to watch the frenly tml..but gt this feeling tt she wun go lo..so din ask..haha..nvm la..alr said wad i want to said to her..so that things can be normal like wad it is..=p smiles.alot im tryin hard..lolx..borin man..stay here 2 hrs..no 1 online de..no 1 to tok to mi..haiz..waiting 4 jas n bro to online..so tt gt ppls pei mi tok..haha..yups..k lar..take care everyone..missing u all lots..
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1:31 PM
Sunday, January 23, 2005;
sianz..going to work ltr..dun feel like working..dun have the mood..yups..so much wanted to see u..but i cant..my hand is so itichy tt i wan sms u every min..but i cant too..n i dun wanna also as said b4..i wan to forget..nt to forget u but to forget tt i once like u b4..i cried 4 u b4..see u sad make mi sad too..always being so sad bcoz of u when u dun even noe..ya..n i dun understand..y u gt to tell other ppls..y? y mus u treat mi this way?do u noe how i feel?no..i doubt so..it ok act..but ..haix..nvm..dun wanna say animore..i wanna be the shaohua tt i used to be..the one that is mature n responsible..the 1 tt is hardworkin n nt so lazy..haix..ok..then to the other 1..u might nt feel tt i will be sad coz of u again..i'll onli be sad coz of her..no lo !! u still affect mi the way u used to ya..i still care n love u like hw i used to..but..i dunno if u still love mi as much..maybe is i think too much..i dunno..feel tt when im sad nowadaez..u r nt totally there 4 mi..u jus ask mi nt to be sad?? onli tt?on so many ocassions..im so sad..i wan hug u n cry..i wan u being there to console mi..but i cant..n maybe u cant too?? i dunno..dun think u noe hw im feeling aniway? i feel tt im alone right nw..sumhw feel tt there r too many above mi ..suan le..jus wan u to noe..i still love u ..yups..n to jh..duno u'll read it anot..jus wanna say..altot i dun wan tok to u right nw..altot im nt the 1 being with u..altot i may irritate by u at times..as a friends..i dun wanna see u so sad..yups..dunno y..sumhow u make mi worry abt u..yeps..to gh..i may nt the 1 tt u look 4 when u r sad..may nt the 1 tt u nid..but..no matter wad..if u nid mi..i'll be there 4 u..n thx airen..for being there once again..n being by my side always..thx gwen n vans..might nt see u all often..but noe u guys still care 4 mi as much..thx my precious jie..for showing mi all ur love..care n concern..for giving all the advise..for encourging mi..for scoldin n beating mi as i noe u care..love u lots..glad tt we ..frm a stranger..can turn out to be sister..n will be a forever 1..thx sista..for smsing mi all this times..tellin mi ur sadness n sharing it with mi..thx all my friends..yups..take care ..dun wanna see anyone sad frm now onward..even if it's jus friend..
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5:06 AM
Friday, January 21, 2005; heart pain wor..
so sad..tt dae in sch wrote a veri long blog..then sch lock the com suddenly..then all disappear..fish them man..lolx..yahz..erm..nt realli feelin gd this few daez coz of sumone..lolx..hate those feeling that i have..but i dunno y..the feeling jus get deeper n deeper..yahz..so i nid to take a long time to forget ..noe that i wun be with that person coz i knew how much u love her..n i have a strong feelin that u 2 will be back together again..yahz..jus hope u happy..dun wanna see u get hurt again..dun wanna see u sad n cried 4 her again..it hurt mi ya..tt dae ..i was so sad lar..sad till i cry..act nv cry de ..but when my phone start to rang..calls frm u all n msg frm u all make mi cried..esp after seeing ur..noe u all were searchin for mi..but i realli wanna be alone at tt time..sorry..called u after tt..hear ur voice..the tone tt u tok to mi..i was so sad..i wan u 2 be by my side at tt time..but u alr gone..u told mi tt u was sad when i went off..i din noe tt..sorry..coz stayin inside would make mi more piss n sad..n i scared tt i'll cry inside..tt worst right..yapz..tt wholee night...i kept on crying..jus cant stop..i dunno y i cry..noe im stupid..but i jus cant control..n to the other 1..sorry 4 nt being there tt dae..coz im sad..alr dunno wad to do to myself..wad more 4 u?? but i jus noe tt seeing u sad n cried make mi more sad..make mi hurt more..but i noe u noe tt im jus beside u right..yahz..glad u r ok nw..u hapi..bt i still tryin to forget..haix..im such a big big loser..yahz..yest cry in class..1st time..hope tt i wun cry again..really..todae n tml no sch..so gd..haha..then ltr going fetch jie n bro..but i think sure gt summore ppls de..dunno..see how ba..yahz..hope i'll enjoy ltr..yahz..im suppose to study nw..then i cum to blog..idoit mi..3 wks times..it time 4 mi to buck up..yepz..think i gonna keep my bks again..going zzzz..kinda tired?? lolx..dunno..mama sure scold..haha..
-=[ wo de sheng ming zhong bu nen mei you ni ]=-
-=[dunno y..my heart suddenly feel so pain ]=-
-=[ y same colour again??]=-
*uoy evol I*
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5:42 AM
Thursday, January 13, 2005; veri long wor..
haha..just now wan to blog but cant..now can le..happi..it so late le but i still online..haha..1st time sia..coz tml no sch!! haha..frm this week onward..i every thur also dun nid go sch..haha..ppls may think tt i veri gd hor..but then gt it advantage n disavantage de le..if nv go out..stay at hm rot..will go crazy de lehz..yahz..coz so boring ma..yahz..hmm..ok..can say that recently..my mood nt bad ya..quite happy lar..but kinda piss off by sumthing..but it ok..nt gonna care le..yahz..last sat at fion chalet..so qiao lo..my gf was there la..it like wad she say..we knew each other so long..nv so qiao b4..haha..then i was like tok to her 4 awhile lo..so happy tt i see her..she veri suay la..call mi when im all wet n hand with cake..so i just touch her face with my hand lo..haha..cindy was there too..but onli greeted her..then after tt din tok to each other le..say le..whenever im with cg ppls..she seldom tok to mi..summore we play like dunno wad..also dunno she think we childish n unhapi anot..but dun care lar..wad i wan is fun..haha..yeah..have lots of fun ..thx ppls..oh ya..got sumone hor..give mi touch until dun wan touch liao la..from top to bottom i also touch finish liao..haha..lolx..then yest..pei ah jie go see sin seh..stupid her..ask her to take care of herself but she din..then this time was the worst..the most painful 1..hmm..the sin seh kinda bad..bluff her..asked her to beng her knee lying down to see how much she can bend..but actual fact is tt when she nv notice..the sin seh go tap her knee fast n hard..at tt time..she ma shan cried sia !!!!she cried veri long n loud..n i noe tt she is realli in pain..so just hold her hand tightly n hug her..dun wanna c her to be so xin ku..seeing her cried make mi hurt sia..it like im the 1 lying down there..*xin tong* yahz..sinseh ask her to rest for 6 wks..then gh was like..eh..by tt time..IVP finish le..then i just dun understand y u r so stubborn..die die also wan play with NYP..no matter how ur condition..have u ever wondered wad will happen if anithing happen again? n how will ppls tt care 4 u feel?? everytime when u said tt u dun care..u must play with NYP..u must beat NYP..u gave mi the feeli like ni yao ba wo da dao..altot im nt playin..but im still consider in the team..n when tt dae arrive..i alr intend to support no 1..just do my part n do wad i asked to do..the rest..u all both go fight ba..either 1 of us will feel bad after the match..but hope thingz on court do nt affect personal stuffz ya..aiyo..i dunno writing wad rubbish sia..kk..let continue..then after tt went to eat then went hm..actually i shld send her hm de..but then the retard so lazy.dun wan take train so we took cab..then every1 alight n left the 2 of us..act next location shld be her house ..n im suppose to take bus frm her house..but she told the uncle to go mi place 1st bcoz it was so late..then i was like..nvm la..coz she injured..nid sumone..n i said i pei her hm le..haix..but she insisted mi hm 1st so..ok lo..yahz..but i felt realli bad la..4 nt sending her hm..haix..sorry wor..next time ok..haha..n i hope she is feelin beta..yahz..den todae had fun in sch playin bball with classmates n airen..yepz..thx 4 ur accompany..n pls stop sayin im man..im gal ok..haha..yepz..wondering wad's my activities tml b4 gg cg training..haha..hope i wun vomit again..lolx..yepz..hey NYP BBALL TEAMS..jiayou ok..will be there to support ur matches n i will return on court when i've recovered..at the meantime..u all jiayou n take care ya..n jie..pls take care of urself wor ..pls pls pls..dun wanna see u injured or sad again..it hurt ya..all the best..pls rem..xiao mei will always be by ur side..now n forever..
-=[ wo de sheng ming zhong bu nen mei you ni ]=-
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4:16 PM
Thursday, January 06, 2005; haix..
just came back frm training..sprain my ankle when trying to stop bird fast break..so sad..then starting legz alr wan cramp le tt y i nv run fast..then trying to ask my legz nt to cramp..coz i dun wanna let coach think tt im so useless..so i try to stay on..yahz..quite alot ppls went todae ba..hmm ..then was like waitin 4 ur reply la..but u din..n i noe u wun..recently..alr cut down my msg..nt tt i am bz or wad..but it that im trying to let go abit..dun wanna give u so much pressure like i used to..im sorry ya..yepz..wondering how r u feeling now..i hope u r ok..coz i dun wanna see u sad..u affect mi ya..read ur blog just now..haiz..dunno la.u din tell mi ya..until i read it..ya..but it ok..hope u r ok ...haiz..cut my hair..realli look like a bung now..regreted..but im still straight de ok..lolx..im a mei mei ..nt didi..lolx..aiya..lazy to blog la..tata
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4:00 PM