Saturday, October 30, 2004; iT HuRt..
Waiting for ya msg..i said tt if u dun reply..i will nt slp..i'll wait till u reply mi..mood wasnt't tt gd ..was happy n enjoying in the 1st place but after sumthing..im totally so sad..i cried..but nt letting u see..i dun wan ur mood to change too..ok..i noe it mi ..it my own prob..but i just cant control myself..just cant stop thinking..think u shlb noe why im sad..y i cry ba..yahz..suan le..i dunno..thingz have change..realli change..u fell down..ppls went to help..but i wasn't there..coz at tt time..was thinking..there r alr so many ppls there 4 u..think u dun nid mi..summore i just finish crying..dun have the xin ya..but after tt still ren bu zhu de go n help u..1st by helping u take ur shoe bag..then asking 4 toilet..then fu u into toilet..help u wash ur legz..then holding on to u to help u walk..yahz..but u realli maki mi luff till siao when u see doc la..btw..think my hand got ur teeth mark ya..dunno izzit.bath then see de..ya..sorry 4 everything but i just cant stop caring u..say tt i will be ur ben dan forever mean i will..say tt i will always be by ur side i also will..yapz..n ya..now also dunno wad happen to gf..haiz..dunno lar..veri tired with everything..hope she is ok..yahz..also haven study..1st thing go see kanna scold by cindy..alamak..sad..lolx..dunno la..everyone seem to be like dun wan mi liao..sob.. It HurT SeeIng U lIke that..
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3:06 PM
Friday, October 29, 2004; WoRld HavE chAnged..
Erm..it late liao..yahz..tok to her 4 a long time..felt happy..then decided to try on new thingz if we wan if nt will regret it..tt wad she say..haha..i will try..was lying on her bd just now..looking at her noe tt she is sad..but i dun dare ask..coz like wad u say..if u wan say u will say de..dun nid ask..but seeing u like tt hurt mi alot..yahz..hope u cheer up..rem out conversation..get to noe thingz ard mi have changed..cant accept at 1st but after thinking..think tt tt is life ba..life have ups n downs..yahz..u have ur paper tml..wan mi to wish u luck..i will ..so here u go..^gd luck 4 tml paper^yahz..take care of urself n dun make mi dan xin..dun mind being ur ben dan forever..haha..4 the rest having paper tml..gd luck too..dun say i bias..lolx..
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4:42 PM
Haiz..just return nt long frm sch..just finish my 1st paper..my math paper..i gonna fail it..damn sad..section A i still ok..but cum to section B..sux..din even noe how to do..i onli noe how to do 9 marks out of 60..how can i pass like this? i damn sad..i tried my best to study but all turn out to be like shit..arrh..dunno..it make mi gonna give up sia..dunno wad to do..already prepare 4 sub paper liao..but hope i can pass..realli..coz i dun wan to repeat..sad..pray 4 mi ya..gonna pia 4 the rest of my paper..lol..hope i realli got the determination to do it ..n i have been worried 4 u ..alot things seem to be like troubling u..i told u i will always be there 4 u..but now..u seem to be like dun believe in anithing..im scared..im afraid n im worried..by reading ur blog..i felt so sad..u can find mi stupid ..foolish..but tt just mi..im like tt..i veri veri zai yi sumone whu i realli treasure..i will care 4 u till i cant..i cant control myself frm caring u..n even my gf ..vanz..n sum others lar..yahz..dunno dunno..hope u are feeling better..take care of urself when im nt there with u..yahz...missing u..u..u.. everydae..haha..pray tt i wun fail !!
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3:26 AM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004; StUpId mI..
StuPid mI..say todae wan start studying but then in the end nv..slacking..tao yan myself..y i dun have the determination to do the thingz i wan? y i cant change 4 the betteR?? haix..morning till now..also dunno if i have do more then 10 ques..2 more daez left..if i dun buck up.it will be too late..tml must pia liao..realli..if nt i sure not gonna make it..i wan to make it so i must do sumthing..yahz..then tml u got paper..so i wish u all the best !! noe u can do it de..jia you..supporting u all the way..miss u lots..take care..sad tt mostly sat cant be there 4 cg dinner..u guys enjoy if i din turn up..
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1:30 PM
Friday, October 22, 2004; CanT wAit..
Whaha..veri happy le..coz later i can go find them le..meeting them to study then they going cg training..so happy lo..coz i so long nv see them le..but we meet so late..then study also think study awhile nia..yahz..erm..i miss all of u le..haha..dunno wad to wrote le.todae wake up veri early..then wan study till now also haven study..no mood le..lazy summore ya...
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2:26 PM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004; DunnO waD tO puT aS TittlE liao..
er..now in sch..just finish a eng test..10 mins finish liao..n mi n my friend gt full mark..act can say is she do de..haha..pair work mar..then hor..after reading so many of ur blog..thinking tt izzit got alot thingz i dunno ..u guys din tell mi or tt u guys keep sumthing frm mi..i dunno..it has been a few weeks since i see u guys..i damn lonely..i wan to see u guys but i cant..weekdae i maybe can see u but u guys nv tell mi whether u free anot ..u guys din contact mi..so i dunno but to stay at hm..aniway..exam also cuming..noe all of u bz with everything but just sending a sms or giving mi a call need so much time mehz?u guys noe tt a sms frm u can lighten up my daez..but always is..i smsing u all..i dunno..maybe i shlb continue to be lonely..or maybe it my fault to start working ba..maybe u guys dun miss mi..it ok ..in my heart..i miss u all can le..i can tell u all..i realli miss u all..wan to see u all..miss the times we had..how i wish everything turn back..but is impossible..maybe we will drifted more n more..but no matter wad happen..i will keep all of u in my heart..n nv will i forget u all..take care..
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1:22 PM
Sunday, October 10, 2004; StRess OuT mAn !!
now at hm using com..todae still nt bad..the com nv always auto shut..then i can play le..thx ar..haha..todae damn stress..in sch nv attend lecture coz we pia projects..pia till siao..a few hours..tt y i say dun like to do last min work..haiz..then i went smoking with friends..i try..its bad..the feeling is nt gd lor..yahz..then told jie n gf..jie nv reply mi le..then gf so angry lor..then i promise her i wun do it again..n tt i wun break her promise..yahz..then after sch went central to buy her present..next week her study break..nid to meet her sumwhere else to give her the present..tml still got training..then got work..im realli stress up lor..haiz..mon gt presentation n test..haven study yet..then the presentation haven prepare..i realli dunno how..sure die..dunno lar..like gonna heck with everything.n jie..better sms mi ar..miss u le..haha..benben mei miss u..haha..k lar..i gonna study later..always say nia then nv study de..think i going die le..yahz..take care everyone..n jia you wor..
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9:35 AM
Thursday, October 07, 2004; Been a few daez..
it had been a few daez since i blog.act tt dae gt blog de but dunno wad happen to my com then all delete le..sianz.now having com lesson in sch..yapz.i realli dunno wad to blog la.coz i dun wan her to think so much n so stress with everything..yahz.just wan u 2 stay happy n cheerful..let all ur sadness out..n of coz i wan to receieve a msg frm u la..coz u always lighten up my dae when i receive ur msg..even if it just once a dae..yahz..n gf bdae cuming...haven gt her anithing yet..having alot alot probs recently..damn stress n fan..dunno wad to do..think this week wun be seeing u all..if i reali din turn up on sun..jia you wor..soul with u guys..n airen..u shld noe if i gonna type..i gonna type veri long n u shld noe wad i wan to say ba..aniway u also wun be reading my blog..miss u badly..k ba..going to do my work le..u guys take care..hao xiang ni men esp you wor..~ hugz ~
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11:12 AM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004; dIn gO sCh aGain..
I Din go sch again..mum ask mi to rest 1 more dae..then guo wei morning cum take my admin card frm mi to help mi scan..thx ya.,.im realli tough n sort of guilty..realli thx..then noe u r sad..veri veri sda nowadae..i hope u dun sad k? coz seeing u sad make mi veri sad coz i realli zai yi u alot..u haven reply my sms ..i hope u reply..todae then i noe gh act went missing 4 the past few daez huh? then u was like so worried 4 her ..ya..er...erm..nvm nvm..ltr hope u reply mi msg lor..then i can share ur sorrow with u..rem ..im THE ONE..u say b4 de..think u wun forget ba right?erm..u gt to hand in project todae...hope u finish liao..yahz..take care ba..
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3:27 AM
Saturday, October 02, 2004; aM i StIll ImpT?
now in sch lab..nv do wad the teacher told us to do but cum to internet n read ur blog..most of ur blog always have Lg..haiz..think realli sumthing make u all so click tt i cant even be so click with u.i realli nid u..pls be there 4 mi always when i needed u..whenever u hold mi..i hope u hope longer ..coz i always wan to be there 4 u..n i wun forget wad happen on my bdae..it will always be a part of my memory always..it had bcum a habit tt i msg u everydae ..i cant stop..but u will try..missing u badly..got loads of thingz to tell u but cant..n i think alot thingz happening in u all but i dunno too..yahz..but it ok..as long as ur heart hold on to mine can le.. n ya..anithing must sms mi or call mi wor..zhen de hao xiang ni..ltr go watch b.a.d l.tension n anson hu..haha..so happy..but sad tt im nt 1 of the helper..i wan to be !!! haiz..u take care..study hard n dun over stress wor..luv ya..
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3:18 AM
Friday, October 01, 2004; DaYz withouT coM..
now in sch ELP ..house gt no com then use sch de lor..er..mama n papa yest go n buy a new com..n of coz..mi n my bro have to pay la..yepz..ltr no money then die le..how ar?i finish sch liao le..then hor..i got no where to go..hm no cim cannot do project also..cannot online..cannot meet them...so sad lor..i wish to see them but i cant..they all so bz ..with trainin..with test..i miss u..yest pei u to inteerchange coz i wan to spend more time with u..but so suay ..the bus cum liao then u got to chase after the bus..wad i can onli do is just watch u run after the bus..then walk off..yahz..er..having ur test todae..u jia you wor..supporting u all the way..i'll always be there 4 u as i told u b4 le..u r veri veri impt to mi...ok?? n gf..hope everything go on well 4 ya presentation..ya..i miss u too..take care everyone.n last but not least..hope airen will msg mi soon..n tt everything will be ok..miss u guys...
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12:39 PM